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Unsure and Useless

Unsure and Useless

Drifting Aimlessly without Roots
Feb 7, 2023
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Usually, I cycle through being normal, even happy, at times and being depressed (like a normal person), and today was pretty much one of those days where I slipped back into depression. However, what was unique was that today I was sufficiently motivated to find a "bus ticket!"

I haven't purchased my method yet. I'm giving myself 3 years, give or take. If things look up by then, I'll just extend my deadline by another 3 years, rinse and repeat until I die of natural causes or chance; otherwise, I'll purchase my method. (Hopefully, the site will still be there, but based on how people have been citing that site for a while—since March of 2024 after it got renamed iirc—I think it will ^^)

With just having hope that I have a reliable method of CTB now, I feel much happier. I almost cried when I found the source because I just felt so relieved knowing that I know where to go if life truly is not worth pursuing anymore. Who knew that freedom could feel so great?

Anyways, thank you to those who left hints as to where to get my method. You guys really made my day (*´︶`*)
 
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Unsure and Useless

Unsure and Useless

Drifting Aimlessly without Roots
Feb 7, 2023
279
Update!

I'm so happy I can't sleep (*´∀`*)
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I understand why you'd feel relief at having the option, I wish you the best in whatever you decide.
 

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