The thought of dying one day is the only thing that makes me smile or feel happy

[iloverachel]

I seriously cannot wait until the day I die, I am actually quite excited for it.

You know that feeling when you haven't eaten food for a very long time and you get that intense craving for food? Or when you haven't slept for days and finally get that sleep in?

For me I have craved death for so long for so many years that when it finally happens I will be so ecstatic.

It is my dream to die, preferably at a young age.

I always fantasize and day dream about dying.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd also be relieved to finally cease existing, there's no sadness in no longer having the ability to suffer in this hellish and repulsive world. It comforts me to think of this existence permanently disappearing into nothingness, in fact for me death is the only relief. Ceasing to exist would solve what I see as the ultimate problem which is existence itself, I never would have chosen to exist, I wish I stayed permanently unaware of this cruel, undesirable existence.

But yes, your feelings certainly are very understandable, in my case I've always and only wished to not exist, I'd always prefer the true peace of non-existence over the torturous and meaningless burden of existing as a human that caused nothing but suffering.

 

[sneab]

I think about it often. Especially when I'm going through…really anything. Even the most minor inconvenience can set me off, but fear always stops me. It still helps a lot to just think about it. To know that nothing actually matters and it's all going to come to an end. Like you I wanted to die young…thought I was going to but it never came. I've told myself that 45 is my limit. If this world dosnt take me out by then I'll HAVE to take matters into my own hands. No matter how scared I am.

 

[SuicidalTiger]

I seriously cannot wait until the day I die, I am actually quite excited for it.

You know that feeling when you haven't eaten food for a very long time and you get that intense craving for food? Or when you haven't slept for days and finally get that sleep in?

For me I have craved death for so long for so many years that when it finally happens I will be so ecstatic.

It is my dream to die, preferably at a young age.

I always fantasize and day dream about dying.

Hi again ILR.

I agree fully, the idea that at any point you can end it all is euphoric! No matter what happens you can just leave, you have the key and no one can ever take that away from you.

You are not a slave to this life, you are not trapped, you are free to live, and if you have the will...
Fuck this life, fuck this existance, and fuck my parents for ever choosing to have me after two miscarriages.
I sincerely hope that everyone here in SaSu (especially myself) gets the peaceful, painless death we all long for after a miserable life.

We will all walk into the sun together one day.