I don't know how to feel about any of my friends; even my closest ones and it's killing me so much.
I love my friends, they mean the world to me, except I don't know if I mean anything to them - anything at all.
I don't wanna sound selfish and I'm starting to get embarrassed on even venting about my problems, but whenever they talk about what's going on with them or what they're struggling with I'm willing to listen and I love sitting around with them for hours listening and trying to help them out.
Except when I say that I want to let some stuff out because I feel like I can trust them they suddenly have other things to do?
I once told a friend (over text) that I feel like I'm this close to CTB and they completely ignored me and didn't reply until I sent another message about another topic, and that even though they said I could talk to them about anything.