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Shadow_

Sometimes dead is better
Mar 14, 2025
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Sometimes we just need to put our thoughts out there.

Those who cared for me are going to hate this day. I've pushed them away already, haven't spoken to any of them in months, my immediate family has been a couple years. So I hope it hurts them less than it would have otherwise. If it does soften the blow, I know it won't be by much, but one can still hope. They don't deserve this pain.

I've felt like this for almost 2 decades, since I was 13, and I've snapped hopefully for the last time. The medications only made me feel numb. Numb isn't something I can handle. I can't just exist, I need some sort of joy. The medications don't allow that. I didn't do enough with therapy, and that is my own fault and I know it. The truth is, I just don't WANT to change. I don't want to be this "better" version of myself.

I've enjoyed many things over these years, I'm glad to have known the people that I did and to have been apart of significant moments in their lives.

LIving just isn't for me.

I hope that many of you who feel the same don't choose the path I have. But it's my choice, and to go on being miserable 95 percent of the time for another 30+ years just sounds exhausting. Faking smiles and happiness sounds torturous.

I hope the best for all of you.

May this be my final attempt.
 
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opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

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Jun 2, 2024
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wishing you the peace and relief this life didn't give you. we're here with you.
 
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saturn1402

saturn1402

Take me back to the night we met
Sep 13, 2024
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I hope you find the peace you are looking for. I am so sorry you couldn't find happiness in this world 🤍
 
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anhedonic_moron

anhedonic_moron

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Mar 20, 2025
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hope nothing but peace and mercy for you
 
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deadbidaylight

deadbidaylight

And the sun will set for you
Feb 27, 2025
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I'm so sorry that life has lead you to this. I wish you much love and peace on your journey. I hope you will finally be free ❤️🕊️
 
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SVEN

SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
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Every good wish from the bottom of my heart.
 
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tiredoflife2

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Jan 21, 2025
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Sending love to you, life can be too much for some of us ❤️
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I wish you the best as well, I hope you find freedom from suffering.
 
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Shadow_

Sometimes dead is better
Mar 14, 2025
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I thank you all. Set up is complete. Drinks are flowing to reduce SI. Schedule is on track. Might have to buy another pack of smokes, but it's a 3 min walk to the gas station.
 
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we're here with you unmet friend.
 
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