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Danby

Danby

Just remember that the last laugh is on you
Aug 13, 2024
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I've finally had enough. The depression, the stress, the feeling of failure is too much. I want the pain to end. So I've decided to CTB.

Up till now, my problem was method. I've tried hanging and night-night, and neither worked. I don't have access to drugs or gas (and the latter is expensive and hard to set up). I don't want to jump off a building or a bridge--I want It quick. My preferred method was shotgun in the mouth, but I don't have any firearms and live in California which makes it harder. I'd have to send away for a gun and go pick it up at a local store. I'm in the middle (well, near the end) of a divorce, and my soon-to-be-ex wife sees all credit card charges because she's in charge of joint finances while the divorce finalizes. Except . . . there's one card she can't see because I got it replaced due to fraud. There's not enough on it at the moment to get a shotgun, but there will be once I make the payment. So

1) make payment on untraceable card
2) once payment clears order gun and ammo
3) once gun arrives go get it at nearby store
4) find secluded spot nearby and CTB

Step 1 is complete. Hopefully by the end of the week it will be all over . . .
 
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timmy_o

timmy_o

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Feb 23, 2025
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Shotgun in the mouth is accepted as one of the quickest and least painful methods, featuring instant unconsciousness and near-instant death. It's the method I will do.
Remember - the idea is to destroy the brain stem and medulla oblongata, which means aiming at the uvula, or slightly below.
As far as I understand, a slug would do the most damage. 00 Buck would have about the same diameter as a slug, but with less power.
If you're worried about seeming suspicious, just say it's for home defense, or hunting (not sure about CA hunting laws).

Hoping you find your peace!
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,549
I hope you find the freedom you search for, I wish you the best.
 
locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
8,951
How many hoops do you have to jump through out there in Fa-La-La-La-Land to buy a shotgun? Just curious.
 

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