Venting The noose isn't so bad

[kingfool316]

After practicing for a while, i don't really find hanging so bad. I am actually looking forward to my scheduled time. I juat want to finish some things first, but accidents can happen while practicing. I won't mind
I just really want the end. But my desire isn't high enough yet to beat SI or the fear of death. That's why i pray i make a mistake while practicing. My hands are shaking. I'll talk more later

 

[DTA]

Right? It seems scarier than it actually is!

 

[kingfool316]

Right? It seems scarier than it actually is!

I actually find it peaceful. One time i partially suspended for 10 secs. It felt so light

 

[DTA]

If you cut off the blood flow properly, 10-15 seconds is about the point where one loses consciousness.
I've never gone beyond that point, but I imagine it would be a peaceful way to go. The body starts convulsing, but you're not aware of it.

 

[kingfool316]

If you cut off the blood flow properly, 10-15 seconds is about the point where one loses consciousness.
I've never gone beyond that point, but I imagine it would be a peaceful way to go. The body starts convulsing, but you're not aware of it.

I sure hope so

 

[DTA]

In fairness when it happened I didn't hang myself. I had someone choke me out. But the principle should be the same. It was only the last couple seconds that it was any sort of difficult, then everything went black. The guy chickened out and released me after that.

 

[Doll Steak]

It doesn't mean much and it almost sounds shallow, but I'm sorry its come to this, I hope you find peace with whatever you choose. If i could be there, even just to give a hug, I really fucking would.

 

[anesthetized]

After practicing for a while, i don't really find hanging so bad. I am actually looking forward to my scheduled time. I juat want to finish some things first, but accidents can happen while practicing. I won't mind
I just really want the end. But my desire isn't high enough yet to beat SI or the fear of death. That's why i pray i make a mistake while practicing. My hands are shaking. I'll talk more later

does partial hanging completely restrict airflow? I feel like the not breathing part might induce panic or SI even if its for a short while.

 

[kingfool316]

does partial hanging completely restrict airflow? I feel like the not breathing part might induce panic or SI even if its for a short while.

When i tried it, i can still breathe

 

[anesthetized]

When i tried it, i can still breathe

I have a few questions if you don't mind answering- what was your ligature made with, how high did you suspend yourself (like were your knees touching the ground, were you sitting, etc), what did you hang yourself from and did you use a slipknot or a hangman's knot?

 

[kingfool316]

As for lig- it was a chord, same ones used for safety chargers. How high- standing height where i can stand limp. From a tree branch. Slipknot

 

[Gustav Hartmann]

Not a bad way to overcome SI. Step of the stool, hang full and step back when you feel unconsciousness coming. It also works with partial hanging. If you don´t succeed to step back or get up, so what. I see no risk to survive with a brain damage.

 

[Kalista]

when the time comes, leave well

 

[kingfool316]

Update: my spot is a bit flooded. Apparently it rained and i did not notice. Can't practice right now, but it did look beautiful. It's just one day

 

[JesiBel]

I agree, I think that of all the methods it is the easiest to execute and the one that allows you to have the greatest control and achieve the desired result.

You can always leave the chair or object you use to stand on. And come back to it if you feel something is not right.

 

[kingfool316]

well I have more misery now. Finally something that can push and boost me to my goal

 

[Worndown]

I am sorry you have more problems.
It does advance your plan.
There is good and bad in everything!

 

[kingfool316]

I am sorry you have more problems.
It does advance your plan.
There is good and bad in everything!

IKR! it fills you with sadness and dread, but it also pushes you to where you want. I don't know how to feel about that.
I am also planning on a semi-fasting. Only dinner, with some water here and there. This is to minimize the shit that will come out of me when i become a corpse. I gotta at least make it easier on the morticians and first responders

 

[kingfool316]

Another update:

I planned to CTB at around 29-31. Gives me time to play 1 more game, watch my last movies, and think things through and properly practice. I hope this time, i will not fail. I'll update what i do if necessary

 

[kingfool316]

Update: started going out a bit more. Wanted to see nature and other things before i go. Man the stream next to my spot is beautiful, i just wanted to be part of it.

 

[kingfool316]

Woohooo, only a couple of days left. I don't know what i'm feeling but happiness is not among them. Ok maybe a little out of finally getting out of this world. Anybody who lives through WW3, well good luck

 

[kapa]

Does it leave a mark and your neck when you are practicing?

 

[kingfool316]

Does it leave a mark and your neck when you are practicing?

i'm not sure, nobody noticed so maybe not. I also rarely see anybody

 

[kapa]

i'm not sure, nobody noticed so maybe not. I also rarely see anybody

Yeah I've tried before winter time so i can cover it if something happens. But i wonder if i try constantly would that leave a mark.

 

[kingfool316]

Update: well i fucked up the plan. Realizing that doing this on a weekend was a horrible idea. So i may have to move this until thursday. Within the weekday is the best time. I really needed to scope out better

 

[eeeeeedeeeeeden]

After practicing for a while, i don't really find hanging so bad. I am actually looking forward to my scheduled time. I juat want to finish some things first, but accidents can happen while practicing. I won't mind
I just really want the end. But my desire isn't high enough yet to beat SI or the fear of death. That's why i pray i make a mistake while practicing. My hands are shaking. I'll talk more later

Ironically I used to find it so peaceful but now the millisecond I start to feel the familiar suffocation and headpopping ache my survival instinct takes over and anxiety cripples me from going through with it. I'm glad others are able to feel the peace and light feeling it used to bring me, but know if you do not succeed you may end up having flashbacks and the SI will keep you from attempting again.

 

[kingfool316]

Ironically I used to find it so peaceful but now the millisecond I start to feel the familiar suffocation and headpopping ache my survival instinct takes over and anxiety cripples me from going through with it. I'm glad others are able to feel the peace and light feeling it used to bring me, but know if you do not succeed you may end up having flashbacks and the SI will keep you from attempting again.

Oh i have failed, but that certainly ain't stopping me

 

[eeeeeedeeeeeden]

Oh i have failed, but that certainly ain't stopping me

Good luck then friend, I wish you all the best at finding peace!