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forevertheproblem
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- Sep 28, 2025
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Over the last year I have had many suicidal thoughts. It wasn't like this but here I am. Every setback now hits harder than the last. Thoughts of my mother falling severly ill, and giving up or worse, euthanizing my dog. I keep trying to talk to people, but I feel disappointed. Everything is very simple for them: I simply cannot be alone; therapy is useless because you just cry to your therapist, and nobody can help you if you cannot help yourself. I have no money for prescription pills or alcohol- which made me feel something other than sadness in a very long time. Speaking to a therapist does not feel useful as it once did, for 40 minutes 'ranting' is not going to take the sadness and helplessness away. It has come to a point where seeing others happy makes me envious and even jealous sometimes. Dying seems like a great option. It will solve my problems as there is no guarantee if I will ever escape the state of mind I keep returning to.