Discussion Tell me why my pattern of thinking was miserable from the get go

[fkyou]

Tell me why my pattern of thinking was miserable from the get go??! From when I was a 12 years old..I was operating from a survivale mindset from a young age when kids my age were just enjoying being their age..I believed I had to get myself out of that misery myself..but apparently I was the only one feeling that misery my siblings are just fine..this is what they call depression..I can't now get over the identity that I've built for myself in my formative years..I can't forget how I felt for too long..