Venting Suicide is not, nor will it ever be, the "easy way" out

[scary]

I honestly don't understand how some normies even come to this conclusion honestly. Obviously people on here understand that this is a very demeaning and frankly disgusting thing to say to or about someone, whether they've succeeded or not. I've made a post about a year ago about the whole "if you were really suicidal you would've done it already" shpeal and my point still stands. Most people have a survival instinct that prevents them from doing it, so... why do they even think that way? how is it the supposed "easy way" out?

I described suicide in my old post as "scary, messy, and exhausting" and to this day I still think that to an extent. Not everyone has access to relatively pain-free methods. If you hypothetically told one of these people to try any of the various methods they'd back out in a heartbeat and would say that it's hard and mentally daunting. For a lot of people, suicide is planned for various reasons. Most people don't just have access to a shotgun where they can just blow their brains out without a second thought. It's so much more complicated than that. People who commit don't want to fail, or worse end up hurt or crippled because of a failed attempt. A lot of people also have guilt about how their loved ones would react. Nothing about suicide is easy.

"It's a permanent solution to a temporary problem" okay? who the hell wouldn't want a permanent solution to a temporary problem? Also, you don't know what people are going through. What if they felt that way at a very young age and it's slowly eating away at them over time? Different things are right for different people, and if that includes a person ending their life, then they should be allowed to in a safe and effective way.

I know that at the end of the day, it's just anti choice mantra. Suicide is a very uncomfortable topic for a lot of people, and I understand that. People don't want the ones they care about to just end it, but why would you guilt them by saying their struggles are "easy"? Taking your own life itself is a struggle and probably one of the biggest struggles someone could go through. I just don't get it man.

Spoiler: My current CTB plan

Putting this in a spoiler box so the people who don't care to read this part can easily skip if they'd like, but I've currently been trying to come up with a CTB plan. I'm one of those people who just doesn't have access to any method really other than OD'ing which everyone and their mother on here says is a bad idea, which I agree and understand. Problem is like I said it's all I really have. I had a plan to sit in my family's car while it was running at night, but the risk factor of me getting caught is way too high plus the fact that they don't make cars like they used to. It would've honestly been my ideal method but it's just too risky for me and not worth it in the end. I honestly don't know what to do. I wish I had my own car and knew how to drive, I would've been gone already if I did. If anyone has any idea of what I should do I'd greatly appreciate it.

 

[usernamegoeshere]

THIS IS SOMETHING I'VE THOUGHT ABOUT SO MUCH TOO. or when people say that people were cowards for actually going through with it. i wish i could be as brave as them, and i honestly look up to people who did it because of how fucking hard it is. i truly wish i was strong enough to go through with it. victim blaming suicide is such a disgusting and honestly downright evil thing that is way too normalized. and it's those same people who will be like "omg why didnt you tell us!" or like "suicide awareness!! spread kindness" it's just bullshit

 

[Porcelaindreamer]

I think that in order to live to the fullest you must be brave in order to die you must be brave. I think staying in between is being a coward.

 

[kopebaldy]

The normals are very ignorant of suicidal thoughts and suicide methods.

I wish we could somehow communicate this to them but their brains aren't wired in a way that would be able to conceptualize and sympathize with these feelings.

Talking to them is useless, and I've given up on that a long time ago. They live their lives, we try to end ours. Let's not fuck with each other's plans.

 

[whywere]

I am and have always been 100% pro-choice, let each and every soul figure it out for themselves, without ANY outside influence, no matter if it is ctb, abortion, whatever.

For me, with 24/7 chronic pain, my CNS (central nervous system) is so messed up from a car crash, car crash NOT my fault, just wrong place at the wrong time.

with all of that said, if and when quantity of life outweighs quality of life, then decisions will be made.

One aspect, after 2 attempts, has taught me is this: always do my darndest to detach instant emotions and try as hard as possible to take a step back. As everyone knows, ctb is one and done, NEVER EVER any do overs.

Lots of hugs and kind and caring thoughts to EVERYONE here. We ARE the finest global family EVER!

Walter

 

[Jadeith]

"It's a permanent solution to a temporary problem"

There's a post by L'absent i absolutely adore:

Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

Oh, ladies and gentlemen, stop everything! We are in the presence of the Einstein of motivational psychology, the Tesla of obviousness, the Mozart of cliché wisdom. A prodigy of human intellect who has just solved the entire existential dilemma with the same depth as a fortune cookie written by...

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[chudeatte]

bro literally. I hate when people say this as if everyone is committing suicide over minor inconveniences. if it was easy, that would be the case. but committing is like a last resort for people who are desperate to escape. they'll never understand that its the final option for people who suffer and that deciding to end your own life is the hardest decision someone will ever make

 

[Forever Sleep]

I tend to think they haven't properly considered it for one. As in- truly thought about what it would feel like to jump off a bridge, swallow a chemical or point a gun at their own head- never really knowing for sure it will kill them cleanly or, even at all.

I think it's also a way of bigging themselves up- they're a fighter. They would never be so 'weak' as to quit the game and, they expect the same of others because in part I suppose, we can't actually see how badly a person's struggle is. We make assumptions- it can't be that bad and, the other chesnut- other people are making a better go of it with far worse circumstances than you.

I think they may also fail to really believe that some people have lost the very will to live and keep fighting. The argument that- Wouldn't we like life if we could get over our 'temporary' (also agree- ridiculous statement) problems? Isn't all together ludicrous but, it assumes we have the energy and fight in us to do that. It also assumes we believe that life will ultimately be worth it. We may not feel that.

They also have a different perception of the whole thing I think. That life is something you need to win at. So- it's important not to give up. Compare it to something else. A chess game. For a master to resign a game of chess would presumably upset them. For a child learning and utterly bored with it, it would be a relief. Our very perception of the value of life could well be different to them.

 

[swankysoup]

Imo everything i have ever done in life was easy compared to committing to dying and following through. Nothing else comes close.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand as it really isn't straightforward and I always suffer from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing to finally escape from this cruel, futile existence I never would had chosen that I always saw as a mistake, all I wish for is to be gone, more than anything I wish there's the option to never suffer ever again, it's so horrible to me how we exist in this anti-suicide world where the suffering and torture of existing is seen as to force and prolong no matter what.

 

[unluckysadness]

I am and have always been 100% pro-choice, let each and every soul figure it out for themselves, without ANY outside influence, no matter if it is ctb, abortion, whatever.

For me, with 24/7 chronic pain, my CNS (central nervous system) is so messed up from a car crash, car crash NOT my fault, just wrong place at the wrong time.

with all of that said, if and when quantity of life outweighs quality of life, then decisions will be made.

One aspect, after 2 attempts, has taught me is this: always do my darndest to detach instant emotions and try as hard as possible to take a step back. As everyone knows, ctb is one and done, NEVER EVER any do overs.

Lots of hugs and kind and caring thoughts to EVERYONE here. We ARE the finest global family EVER!

Walter

Thanks for your support Walter

 

[dogwolfybark]

As dumb as the statement is, sometimes, people don't even realize that sometimes it's a solution to a permanent problem.
Nobody ever seems to think about lifelong mental illnesses or even physical illnesses.
It's just like with depression and things related to it. There's just a lot of people who don't actually know what it's like
and think there's really basic solutions.
I also don't understand why people are so afraid of having the info to do all this properly.
If people are gonna do it anyways wouldn't you want them to at least do it in the right way?
you want people to fuck themselves up or suffer in massive pain while doing it?

 

[brokenspirited]

It's truly horrific that there isn't any peaceful and straightforward to cease existing when there's nothing I want more than to be gone and finally free from this disgusting, pointless unwanted existence.

 

[strawberry931]

It's a permanent solution to a temporary problem

Sometimes the problem is permanent too.