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miseryonearth

miseryonearth

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Mar 6, 2025
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I had three days to jump from 15 storey building but couldn't do it every time as I had many questions arising in mind and fear of height too. I am such a loser who can't even have strong conviction to jump.
Now I am going back to home and only option I have is hanging. I hope I do it before 18th as my engagement is on that date and I don't want to do it. Fuck Survival Instinct and fuck this life.
 
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DivineSpark

DivineSpark

Elementalist
Feb 9, 2025
831
May I ask? Why do you want to die? Dont blame yourself, humans are wired for survival, it is hard to overcome survival instinct.
 
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Lostmyonlyson

Lostmyonlyson

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Apr 11, 2025
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I hope I do it before 18th as my engagement is on that date and I don't want to do it
Woah... then don't do it!!

About not having the courage to jump, it is not easy, had a few situations where I could 'easily' CTB on those almost 2 years since I lost my son, and it's not easy, don't beat yourself for that, when your time comes you will do it properly.
 
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sanction

sanction

sanctioned
Mar 15, 2019
646
Don't be too hard on yourself. It is not the easiest method. I don't have the guts to do it myself either. I'm sure many people can relate

All the best my friend
 
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monolog

Student
Oct 29, 2024
122
This pattern of thinking probably caused your depression
I would be scared as well, because I am interested only in painless ways
 

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