not sure if this makes sense. i mean unknowns with a lot of things, how to do it where to do it how much closure do i need. i talk a lot less now, there is less to ask about in some ways so maybe the shift is happening. sometimes you lean on things until something makes sense, suicide is making more sense and sometimes the way that works is what feels natural, instincts and indecision don't get in the way of that in the end
