Staying alive for a bit

[Floppa]

You guys know any tricks how to stay alive a little longer? I don't want to upset my grandma I am currently living together, she's got noone else and I'm basically her only company and help in day to day life. Mother I am less worried about, she's got a family and I am planning to leave her my flat and some money anyway - my idea of a compensation of sorts. But the thing is, lately I have been thinking about suicide too much, that's unusual for me, I am afraid I'll act someday on an impulse and I don't want to be robbed of control, the exit should not be rushed or made from a place of desperation. So the question is: any mental tricks, perhaps chemical substances that can ensure I live for another year or two?

 

[brighteyesfan144]

You guys know any tricks how to stay alive a little longer? I don't want to upset my grandma I am currently living together, she's got noone else and I'm basically her only company and help in day to day life. Mother I am less worried about, she's got a family and I am planning to leave her my flat and some money anyway - my idea of a compensation of sorts. But the thing is, lately I have been thinking about suicide too much, that's unusual for me, I am afraid I'll act someday on an impulse and I don't want to be robbed of control, the exit should not be rushed or made from a place of desperation. So the question is: any mental tricks, perhaps chemical substances that can ensure I live for another year or two?

have you ever attempted? my advice for mental tricks is to get busy distracting yourself. start working on a big project or get invested in some video games.

 

[Floppa]

have you ever attempted? my advice for mental tricks is to get busy distracting yourself. start working on a big project or get invested in some video games.

I have, but I was a foolish 15yo boy at the time, didn't really understand the impact of my actions, so now I want to be more careful. Games i've tried, not really helpful, as for big projects - idk, what kind of? Doesn't that require passion or whatever which i think i lack?

 

[brighteyesfan144]

I have, but I was a foolish 15yo boy at the time, didn't really understand the impact of my actions, so now I want to be more careful. Games i've tried, not really helpful, as for big projects - idk, what kind of? Doesn't that require passion or whatever which i think i lack?

not necessarily. i would ask chatgpt to find out what you're interested in and start a project that will take over a year.

 

[ventiswine]

gacha games usually do it for me but i saw ur reply and that's ok if it takes a bit to find ur own thing.
anime helped me when i was still into that a bit because i would wait each week for a new ep then wait months for a season.
really have anything to look forward to, even if it's phone time in bed while drinking smth nice create a lil nice routine. you will eventually find ur own thing. try new stuff and don't pressure yourself. wishing you the best