Venting soul crushing days

[slitwristsbleedcold]

these weeks are really so dim, I've been doing nothing, just laying in bed rotting and going to work, it feels like I'm not even a person anymore, just a bag of meat, if it wasn't for the circumstances, and people around me, I probably would have died already

how can one, unlearn a lifetime of torment? i really don't know

if i had one dream, a desire, it would be, to stop being such a coward to myself, and become brave, to do what i have to do

 

[pogostick]

I understand you. I just spend my days in bed and going to uni when I'm scheduled to. I don't do my work when I get home, I just lie around and scroll on my phone and nap when I get bored of it. Nothing feels enjoyable

 

[58Alice85]

These cursed voices torment me the entire day, at night i get nightmares where they still are speaking.
Feelings of sadness, melancholy, grief, depression have faded away and are replaced by permanent overstimulation, aggression, too much adrenaline, being extremely on edge. I want to die.
As i wrote this the voice yelled "POPPED THAT CHERRY"

 

[whywere]

You are NOT a coward EVER NEVER!

Everyone is totally different in how they can handle situations and life in general.

I had a HORRIBLE childhood back in the 1960' and early 1970's and it still affects me. I get a head scratching episode every time someone tells me to "just get over it". NOT that easy, maybe for some NOT me.

I mentioned the prior, as you are a wonderfully kind and caring person, one just has to read your posts and that jumps right out to a person. Every day, I smile at the fact that I made it through everything, and you will to also, as your humanity and intelligence will help you navigate your life.

One other aspect is, PLEASE do NOT be so hard on yourself, watch a wonderful sunrise or sun set and think of all the wonderful folks on here as family rooting for you always, I do!

Have a beautiful weekend filled with sunny blue skies, love, hugs and the knowledge that YOU are truly an awesome soul!

Walter

 

[slitwristsbleedcold]

You are NOT a coward EVER NEVER!

Everyone is totally different in how they can handle situations and life in general.

I had a HORRIBLE childhood back in the 1960' and early 1970's and it still affects me. I get a head scratching episode every time someone tells me to "just get over it". NOT that easy, maybe for some NOT me.

I mentioned the prior, as you are a wonderfully kind and caring person, one just has to read your posts and that jumps right out to a person. Every day, I smile at the fact that I made it through everything, and you will to also, as your humanity and intelligence will help you navigate your life.

One other aspect is, PLEASE do NOT be so hard on yourself, watch a wonderful sunrise or sun set and think of all the wonderful folks on here as family rooting for you always, I do!

Have a beautiful weekend filled with sunny blue skies, love hugs and he knowledge that YOU are truly an awesome soul!

Walter

you're an angel, ty for the kind words