Help Songs that ENCOURAGE suicide?

[delta2]

For starters, hello again.
Secondly, asking this question makes me feel like a strait laced nerd looking up "where is the best place to find drug dealers near me".

The question is exactly that. I'm not looking to encourage myself to keep living, Im trying to encourage myself to just fucking do it already.

So far I have
Bloodhound Gang - Lift Your Head Up High
Pink Guy - Kill Yourself (beginning looped but constantly being removed from YouTube)
MGMT - When You Die
B.I.G. - Suicidal Thoughts (not directly encouraging though, just kinda imagining how people would react)

I need something that is equivalent to someone saying
"Kill yourself you insecure, simpy, perverted, creepy, attention seeking, broke ass little boy"
Extra points if it's racist as fuck (I am Afro Latino).

I know I love life, I know I love people in my life, but I also know I hate myself and I'm never going to be able to live the life that I have in mind for myself. I can't take the pain, I can't break the restraints of guilt over how the people who value me would feel, and every day I wake up more tired and discouraged than the last despite being put on PROPER meds for once. The only way to "fix" me is to get rid of me.

 

[LosingFeathers]

I'm sorry you are that hurt. Though I think encouraging people do ctb is not what this place is for tbh. I can recommend some songs, that I listen to regulary when I'm feelin down. They are not explicictly about commiting ctb, and more expressions of the struggle with mental health:

HEALTH got some dramatic songs, but they are sometimes a bit too "emo" for my taste tbh
Personal favorites of HEALTH:
- UNLOVED
- ASHAMED
- (OF BEING BORN)
- DON'T TRY
- FREE TO DIE
- STILL BREATHING
- IDENTITY

Pretty much anything from my favorite artist ADA ROOK. My personal favorites:
- BURY YOURSELF
- RAT KID LIFESTYLE
- PEE YUORSELF
- holding your sleeping body i prayed to god for the first time in my life that i would be able to keep you alive
- Strangers - Silk Thread Growing Through the Glass Tube Bisecting the Abdomen of a Cecropia Moth Hatched in Captivity - DNA - Nothing Here.
- An ocean
- BRACKISH
- in for a world of hurt

Deathconsciousness:
- A Quick One Before The Eternal Worm Devours Connecticut

I hope those songs help to linder your pain.

 

[Webcore]

LULU Suicide - Hi, I'm ready to die

 

[VeryLonelyBread]

Child psychology - black box recorder

 

[DoomedDarkCircles]

For starters, hello again.
Secondly, asking this question makes me feel like a strait laced nerd looking up "where is the best place to find drug dealers near me".

The question is exactly that. I'm not looking to encourage myself to keep living, Im trying to encourage myself to just fucking do it already.

So far I have
Bloodhound Gang - Lift Your Head Up High
Pink Guy - Kill Yourself (beginning looped but constantly being removed from YouTube)
MGMT - When You Die
B.I.G. - Suicidal Thoughts (not directly encouraging though, just kinda imagining how people would react)

I need something that is equivalent to someone saying
"Kill yourself you insecure, simpy, perverted, creepy, attention seeking, broke ass little boy"
Extra points if it's racist as fuck (I am Afro Latino).

I know I love life, I know I love people in my life, but I also know I hate myself and I'm never going to be able to live the life that I have in mind for myself. I can't take the pain, I can't break the restraints of guilt over how the people who value me would feel, and every day I wake up more tired and discouraged than the last despite being put on PROPER meds for once. The only way to "fix" me is to get rid of me.

You said you love life, maybe that's a sign you could give yourself a chance?

As for the songs that I like that fit this criteria, it comes to mind Gallowdance by Lebanon Hanover and Jezebel by Acid Bath. But just think about it

 

[Seneca65AD]

Wow, I haven't heard of 90% of the above songs. Must be an age thing. For me the theme song to M.A.S.H. is the absolute pinnacle of suicide songs - Suicide is Painless by Johnny Mandel. Everytime I hear it, I think about how life has changed from when I was a child in the late 60's and early 70's. The actors I watched are gone, pets, friends, family members, all gone or in the process of leaving. I get melancholic thinking about the transient nature of life.

 

[ijustwannabeloved]

Highway by Elusin

 

[LaetumCat]

"Suicide letter to myself" an album by m1v, songs: why, won't, you, bother. (you can find on Spotify)
Fine, I'll isekai myself by LucyPyre

Japanese songs(you can find translations online tho):
Shinitagari by Nashimoto Ui
Self-inflicted achromatic by Nekobolo
Ruru's livestream suicide show by Shinsei Kamattechan
With or without me by PinocchioP

I think that's all I know. A lot of vocaloid songs are about suicide but not encouraging it, rather just venting.

 

[kurikaesu]

"Under The Influence" by Current Joys

i think nick rattigan's work has a lot merit and is much more then just "depressed teenager music", that album is fantastic imo

also "if i had a gun" by buckshot, coincidentally nick rattigan is somewhat affiliated with HM