Discussion Sometimes I feel like I want to be so horrible that leaving this world wouldn’t feel bad

[Hangm4n]

So I was thinking about this. With my wife constantly in my ear, my children driving me mad and finances not great. Sometimes I just wanna say "I fucking hate all of you" because I feel like if I'm really horrible, I can just drive so far away and just hang myself because I feel like I would've made it easier for them to forget me. Does this makes sense?
Because I'm gonna be honest, I never wanted kids, I never wanted to get married I feel like I was pressured into it. I prefer being on my own. I hope somebody can relate as it would be nice to have a back and forth discussion if I'm not the only one :)

 

[eSpJon]

I cant stand people for more than 10 minutes once a week

 

[lymbo]

So I was thinking about this. With my wife constantly in my ear, my children driving me mad and finances not great. Sometimes I just wanna say "I fucking hate all of you" because I feel like if I'm really horrible, I can just drive so far away and just hang myself because I feel like I would've made it easier for them to forget me. Does this makes sense?
Because I'm gonna be honest, I never wanted kids, I never wanted to get married I feel like I was pressured into it. I prefer being on my own. I hope somebody can relate as it would be nice to have a back and forth discussion if I'm not the only one :)

who pressured u to merry

 

[Final Escape]

So I was thinking about this. With my wife constantly in my ear, my children driving me mad and finances not great. Sometimes I just wanna say "I fucking hate all of you" because I feel like if I'm really horrible, I can just drive so far away and just hang myself because I feel like I would've made it easier for them to forget me. Does this makes sense?
Because I'm gonna be honest, I never wanted kids, I never wanted to get married I feel like I was pressured into it. I prefer being on my own. I hope somebody can relate as it would be nice to have a back and forth discussion if I'm not the only one :)

I'm living that life as a middle age lady at 42. I would say it's very hard being childless and no spouse at my age. Really hard :(" I mean it's lonely as fuck. Of course I do not have a good job either so I mean it basically feels like I'm pointlessly existing because there's no relationships or at least a satisfying career to give meaning. When you're older u will be thankful u have a family. When we get old we become invisible so if u have a spouse and kids u will have people around u when u are no longer attractive or interesting to other people. I understand though that it's tough to have the responsibility of kids and a spouse, it can be lots of pressure especially these days. It's harder to afford kids and make marriage work than it was decades ago when gender roles were more defined and other factors.