sobsob
Member
- Aug 29, 2024
- 36
hello gang. i am back after a few months, foolishly thinking that everything was ok once summer hit and now that its getting colder and classes have started up again, i am reminded that life is horrible. call it seasonal depression, i call it "i cant handle anything, even fluctuating seasons/weather patterns/life changes. i should die".
in february, i ordered a ctb kit of SN from trusted provider DMC. paid $100 just to get my shit seized by customs and get nothing from it. i paid via airbnb for ease so i couldnt even get a refund due to the weirdness of a third party. now DMC's site is pretty much shut down, i think hes still active on whatsapp, but he wants to charge me double to send another package plus i would need to use a new address and i just cant even. i guess he might be an option if i get really desperate down the line, but i want to avoid his bs.
soooo, what now? what can i even do? i feel myself falling deeper into the depression pit already, and i dont care to survive to May to crawl back out of it, especially knowing that come next september ill be back here again. therapy doesnt help, meds dont help. ive been in this mental state my whole life. why is it wrong for me to want to tap out??
if anyone can relate to this pls feel free to drop a reply or shoot me a message. lets figure out wtf to do about this.
in february, i ordered a ctb kit of SN from trusted provider DMC. paid $100 just to get my shit seized by customs and get nothing from it. i paid via airbnb for ease so i couldnt even get a refund due to the weirdness of a third party. now DMC's site is pretty much shut down, i think hes still active on whatsapp, but he wants to charge me double to send another package plus i would need to use a new address and i just cant even. i guess he might be an option if i get really desperate down the line, but i want to avoid his bs.
soooo, what now? what can i even do? i feel myself falling deeper into the depression pit already, and i dont care to survive to May to crawl back out of it, especially knowing that come next september ill be back here again. therapy doesnt help, meds dont help. ive been in this mental state my whole life. why is it wrong for me to want to tap out??
if anyone can relate to this pls feel free to drop a reply or shoot me a message. lets figure out wtf to do about this.
