Some of us go through so much pain and negativity that we cant live without it

[LastDayOnEarth]

I can't even allow myself to become too happy, lower my guard or sit back to enjoy the moment because im always expecting negativity. At this point is like I start craving negativity to happen so that I feel at home

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

I remember first thinking like that when I was about 7 years old, and have stayed that way ever since. I firmly believe this is being realistic and practical and normal. Once I accepted that this is how it is, I don't waste energy trying to twist life into something it just is never going to be.

 

[Ligottian]

I'm always ruminating about all the trauma and "bad stuff" that could happen in the next moment or the next year.

 

[LetMeOut67]

Yeah I think why bother getting my hopes up