So this is what hell looks like

[Sasha]

Everyday I am hoping that life is just a dream, soon I would wake up & be in a different place. But I can't seem to wake up from this dream, it's been 15 years. I keep trying to wake up but I can't. Everyone seems fake, everything seems like an illusion. I want to die. I can't live, because it's all just too much for me. I can't die, because I can't find a suitable method. I don't care if it's painful, I just want it to be quick. I thought about sn, but I can't find where to buy it. I thought of n, but the only seller I trust is undergoing some surgery. I just wish someone would kill me, I don't want to live a second longer. I feel trapped in my own body. The biggest mistake of my life was being born. Everyone thinks I am wasting my time by spending too much time on the Internet. No, I am trying to distract myself from this illusion of life.

 

[Goldie]

A will be back taking orders for dispatch on November 19th if I understood correctly. Hang on in there. Dont risk MG or WU as I did, get some BTC.

 

[dysfunctional]

Everyday I am hoping that life is just a dream, soon I would wake up & be in a different place. But I can't seem to wake up from this dream, it's been 15 years. I keep trying to wake up but I can't. Everyone seems fake, everything seems like an illusion. I want to die. I can't live, because it's all just too much for me. I can't die, because I can't find a suitable method. I don't care if it's painful, I just want it to be quick. I thought about sn, but I can't find where to buy it. I thought of n, but the only seller I trust is undergoing some surgery. I just wish someone would kill me, I don't want to live a second longer. I feel trapped in my own body. The biggest mistake of my life was being born. Everyone thinks I am wasting my time by spending too much time on the Internet. No, I am trying to distract myself from this illusion of life.

SN is pretty easy to find. Online cooking stores or fishing stores have it.

 

[tevati]

Ebay you may need import that or sodium azide

 

[Limbo]

I dont understand how people go on for so long. My life was fucked over may this year and ill be dead by 2019. Just make a decision and stick to it. Am I going to live or die. People procrastinate way too much.

 

[Sasha]

I dont understand how people go on for so long. My life was fucked over may this year and ill be dead by 2019. Just make a decision and stick to it. Am I going to live or die. People procrastinate way too much.

Some people like me don't have the courage to do it, some people are worried about what will happen to their family, some people struggle to find methods etc. There are multiple reasons why people don't do it immediately. Everyone has their reasons. Just because you would do it immediately doesn't mean everyone has to, for some it would take years.

 

[Limbo]

Some people like me don't have the courage to do it, some people are worried about what will happen to their family, some people struggle to find methods etc. There are multiple reasons why people don't do it immediately. Everyone has their reasons. Just because you would do it immediately doesn't mean everyone has to, for some it would take years.

but 15 years...at that point may aswell ride it out.

 

[dysfunctional]

I dont understand how people go on for so long. My life was fucked over may this year and ill be dead by 2019. Just make a decision and stick to it. Am I going to live or die. People procrastinate way too much.

Harsh, mine went to shit april/may of this year too.

 

[Limbo]

Harsh, mine went to shit april/may of this year too.

Its more confusion really. Even on this site Ill never understand people. I knew id be a burden and my life will never be the same. Thats that, decision made. Maybe im a sociopath.

 

[Sasha]

but 15 years...at that point may aswell ride it out.

I am 15 rn. By 15 what I meant was, if life was dream like some people say I would have woken up. I would not be sleeping for 15 years.

 

[Limbo]

I am 15 rn. By 15 what I meant was, if life was dream like some people say I would have woken up. I would not be sleeping for 15 years.

dude...honestly

 

[Schopenhauer]

Life sucks. Anyway, being born wasn't your mistake, just as it wasn't mine. I've done many bad things in life, but I'd never chose to be born if I had the choice.

Anyway, do your research, bid your time. Suicide doesn't have to be immediate. Just making decision makes life easier in some respects.

If life is a dream, then I'm suffering from a nightmare while in an eternal coma. Damn, that's an awful thought.