
dreamsofhome
Blessed are the Peacemakers
- Nov 11, 2024
- 17
Reckon I'm catching my bus tonight (well... early morning hours here). Funnily (maybe not so funny lol?) enough on the one year anniversary of the death of someone I loved. I didn't plan it to be that way, I didn't even set a date. I've just spent the last few days getting together the shit I need and my affairs in order and I'm ready tonight. Partial hanging, if you're curious.
I requested no obituary, no funeral, and I don't care what happens to my stuff… it's not like I can take it with me. I just don't want to perceived, even in death.
I'm caught somewhere between scared and feeling nothing at all. I'm more scared of failing at my attempt than I am dying really. But I can't. Cannot. Do this shit any longer. This is a self mercy, the one good thing I will do for myself in this fucked up existence.
I fucking hate the absolutely miserable, apathetic, person I've become. Empathy burnout is a real thing folks, lord have mercy. Always remember that empathy without boundaries is self destruction.
I wish I had more to say. I wish I was a better writer but alas.. I am not. I have no real profound wisdom to share. I wish all of you the best in whatever endeavors you may have in this life, or whatever the hell comes after.
Goodbye and goodnight, my friends. <3
P.S, If you have pets, pet them for me please and if you ever play either of the Red Dead Redemption games or watch the movie Tombstone. Think of your old pal, dreamsofhome, would ya? ;) (I will miss them terribly.. maybe..idk what comes after death.)
I requested no obituary, no funeral, and I don't care what happens to my stuff… it's not like I can take it with me. I just don't want to perceived, even in death.
I'm caught somewhere between scared and feeling nothing at all. I'm more scared of failing at my attempt than I am dying really. But I can't. Cannot. Do this shit any longer. This is a self mercy, the one good thing I will do for myself in this fucked up existence.
I fucking hate the absolutely miserable, apathetic, person I've become. Empathy burnout is a real thing folks, lord have mercy. Always remember that empathy without boundaries is self destruction.
I wish I had more to say. I wish I was a better writer but alas.. I am not. I have no real profound wisdom to share. I wish all of you the best in whatever endeavors you may have in this life, or whatever the hell comes after.
Goodbye and goodnight, my friends. <3
P.S, If you have pets, pet them for me please and if you ever play either of the Red Dead Redemption games or watch the movie Tombstone. Think of your old pal, dreamsofhome, would ya? ;) (I will miss them terribly.. maybe..idk what comes after death.)