So lonely and hurting

[Ayeitsalaska]

I feel lots of suffering. i feel lonely. im having discioative amensia episodes. im scared of losing my life. im scared of living this life. but im scared to die. i want to die so bad but my mind is so unstable that i can't plan my suicide. i feel almost paraylyzed in my own mind

 

[Sancti]

There's lots of people here to talk to if you're feeling lonely. They may not be there physically, but I find that it can help. I don't have any advice for the medical stuff, unfortunately. I hope you can find some kind of comfort, if any.

 

[Rocksandsand]

Hi @Ayeitsalaska

I wish I had something more constructive or comforting to say... I just wanted to let you know that I suffer from dissociative amnesia too. And it is so fucking hard and I am so sorry you have to deal with it. The tension between life and death is the reason this forum exists... Personally, I find that talking to people here calms that tension a little. I hope it can do the same for you.

 

[okkkk]

Feeling stuck with your own mental state is a horrible place to be in. I suffer from chronic anxiety that constantly embarrasses me and handicaps the things I want to do in life. Watching everything go by as I get older is pure torture, and the lonliness is unbearable. All I can say is that I understand the isolation that comes with having intense fear about living your own life. Talking here is a good way to feel slightly less alone. I wish I had a more exact solution but Im still figuring that out myself.

 

[bigj75]

i feel for you. i can't imagine what you are going through. i really wish i could help

 

[Ayeitsalaska]

thank you guys.

 

[Cheezmam]

You are probably not ready to catch the bus.

 

[Ayeitsalaska]

why?

 

[sadbunny]

This sounds like me, but you're better at putting it into words.

I hope that this feeling will soon pass.