Venting So jealous of functional families

[Dandelion's]

Why me? Why did I never get to have a proper childhood? it's so unfair. I vividly remember being 7 and asking my mom to play with me her saying no and then asking why she never plays with me and then being yelled at that adults don't like playing kids games, that I am old enough to entertain myself, I vividly remember being nine and being called fat by my own mother, I vividly remember being called stupid for failing to concentrate because of ADHD and then not receiving any help preparing for tests almost ever again, I vividly remember trying to tell her about my day in elementary school and being yelled at to shut up and that she's watching tv, I vividly remember being confused about the worried looks in my classmates and teachers eyes as I talked about my homelife and I vividly remember being screamed at for crying.

Yet I am being gaslighted into believing it's not that bad or that it never even happened.

I am disgusted by the thought of this Woman Feigning innocent and sad once I am dead

 

[Jadotine]

Me too I get super envious of other people when they "just" have functional families...
Why is it that I was born into my family? Like I can't even communicate with my parents since I've never learned it (so we never talked)

I feel robbed from my childhood... Me too I wanted to go on holidays like other people, celebrate my birthday like normal people, play with my friends instead of being shamed by my parents for that

I just wanted to have a childhood, man

 

[Dandelion's]

Me too I get super envious of other people when they "just" have functional families...
Why is it that I was born into my family? Like I can't even communicate with my parents since I've never learned it (so we never talked)

I feel robbed from my childhood... Me too I wanted to go on holidays like other people, celebrate my birthday like normal people, play with my friends instead of being shamed by my parents for that

I just wanted to have a childhood, man

Yeah I don't understand why these kinds of people have kids

 

[nowhere123]

me too

 

[crystalcastles]

same..........

 

[volo]

Yup.

 

[Passenger4224]

This same jealousy hit me recently.

I was swimming at a lake with some friends and a family with 5 kids was there too. I was just so jealous because they were such a fun family, and all of the kids were normal and not all just reaching for their iPads. All I wanted was to be one of the girls instead of being the loser I am now with my loser parents. I would have done anything to have been born as a normal girl in a normal family.

I wish so many of the narcissists would stop bringing more humans into this world. I'm sorry your mom treated you so badly.

 

[seeyoulater26]

Me too. I often wonder who I could've been if only my family were at least a little bit "normal."
I wish I didn't grow up in a household where I had to walk on eggshells. Where it wasn't violent. No yelling, slamming down stuff and doors... no berating language.
Almost all conversations ended up in stupid fights. Economic abuse.
I feel fortunate to have made it this far despite it all, but damn...