baller
"such is life"
- Apr 30, 2024
- 60
I thought I was getting better for a moment. I had changed my environment, changed the people I surround myself with, hadn't been here in months.
was left with my thoughts, without the excitement of the new place i was in and work i was putting myself in and i realised im still fucking empty and unfulfiled and still have no plans for my life.
Im still angry im still stupid im still sick. I still feel like I have no friends and i have no incentive to plan for my future. The job i want will be taken by ai, i dont want kids, I'm aroace so i dont want to date or marry. Im not contributing anything useful to the world and would be better off as fertiliser.
I feel like im in the worst time of my life right now and that im going insane, i feel insane
The only peace i feel is fantasising about when i'll ctb
It'll never get better, theres something inside me that prevents it.
was left with my thoughts, without the excitement of the new place i was in and work i was putting myself in and i realised im still fucking empty and unfulfiled and still have no plans for my life.
Im still angry im still stupid im still sick. I still feel like I have no friends and i have no incentive to plan for my future. The job i want will be taken by ai, i dont want kids, I'm aroace so i dont want to date or marry. Im not contributing anything useful to the world and would be better off as fertiliser.
I feel like im in the worst time of my life right now and that im going insane, i feel insane
The only peace i feel is fantasising about when i'll ctb
It'll never get better, theres something inside me that prevents it.
