Venting So bored

[BlueButterfly111]

I feel like there's nothing for me to do while I wait for my Sn to come. I try different hobbies, I watch tv, but all of it is just so boring. I'm literally just a living corpse waiting to actually die, there's nothing else for me to do in this life. Last year my life was so full of love and excitement and happiness, now I'm just sitting here empty and numb. I hope it gets here soon, like sometime this month, would be lovely! I feel like a broken record, my words don't even mean anything anymore, theres nothing else to even say, I don't know why I keep posting, I just need to go.

 

[PrismHon]

What changed from last year? That seems like a huge change

 

[BlueButterfly111]

What changed from last year? That seems like a huge change

My boyfriend passed away 9 months ago, I was so happy with him last year when he was still alive.

 

[dune7263]

My boyfriend passed away 9 months ago, I was so happy with him last year when he was still alive.

do you believe there is an afterlife and you will join him?

 

[BlueButterfly111]

do you believe there is an afterlife and you will join him?

Yeah, well I'm not religious but I am spiritual, I don't really believe in heaven or hell but I believe he's somewhere in the spiritual realm. I just feel like there's something more beyond this lifetime, but I don't have all of the answers. And he is safe and happy, and I believe that I will go there as well.

 

[divinemistress36]

Everything is boring and superficial here I dont get what people like about it

 

[dune7263]

Yeah, well I'm not religious but I am spiritual, I don't really believe in heaven or hell but I believe he's somewhere in the spiritual realm. I just feel like there's something more beyond this lifetime, but I don't have all of the answers. And he is safe and happy, and I believe that I will go there as well.

that's similar to my beliefs

 

[Subhumano]

Same, I just rot in bed and watch the time pass. Everything bores me

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand just wanting to be free from it all, I hope you find the freedom from suffering you search for.