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BPDtgirl

BPDtgirl

delicate thing
May 5, 2025
86
Thank, fucking, God.

250 grams have been ordered. Here's to hoping it doesn't get intercepted by UK customs? The delivery said 11-14 days, which suddenly seems such a long time considering I have tried so many fucking times to end it all.

This is the only way I know that is just 100% fatal. You mix that drink and get it down you and thats it, no going back, we're outta here.

I'll keep posting as long as I can.
 
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BlockedintheUK

Member
Dec 20, 2025
95
Is not 1oo% if you're found right or panic and call for help? you need tranquilisers too?
 
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BPDtgirl

BPDtgirl

delicate thing
May 5, 2025
86
Is not 1oo% if you're found right or panic and call for help? you need tranquilisers too?
Already taken care of, i'm prescribed mirtazipine which, when taken, takes you out completely. Benzodiazepines will work too. There isn't much panicking to do, really. Once taken, you're gone within an hour or so and I doubt I will be able to move very far.

The SN is 98% purity and there is enough to kill me here plenty of times.

This supplier is in NL, my concern right now is if this package will be intercepted by UK customs. I'm already known to the NHS for this shit so if they find out I'm getting a police car ride.
 
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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,013
It's so simple yet taste so bad ...
 
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BPDtgirl

BPDtgirl

delicate thing
May 5, 2025
86
It's so simple yet taste so bad ...
oh hey you,

fingers crossed for me this time, hopefully this goes better than the last lmao
 
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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,013
oh hey you,

fingers crossed for me this time, hopefully this goes better than the last lmao
Check your pms lol... yeah although I do think last time would've worked if the circumstances were better...
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,018
I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.
 
Marsmia

Marsmia

Failed hanging a laughable amount of times
Dec 14, 2025
13
oh hey you,

fingers crossed for me this time, hopefully this goes better than the last lmao
I wish you the absolute best!

I fucking hate the UK. I'm desperate for some sn but had a bunch of issues and now my family check my mail.
 
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dalemar

Arcanist
Nov 20, 2025
454
Good luck!
I hope you find the peace you deserve and that everything goes according to your will!
 
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metothemoon

Student
Feb 11, 2024
145
Already taken care of, i'm prescribed mirtazipine which, when taken, takes you out completely. Benzodiazepines will work too. There isn't much panicking to do, really. Once taken, you're gone within an hour or so and I doubt I will be able to move very far.

The SN is 98% purity and there is enough to kill me here plenty of times.

This supplier is in NL, my concern right now is if this package will be intercepted by UK customs. I'm already known to the NHS for this shit so if they find out I'm getting a police car ride.
Is there a supplier there which does not require you to "be a buisiness" or anything? How did you order?
Sorry to ask, I got another source, but this would save me some trouble..
 
BPDtgirl

BPDtgirl

delicate thing
May 5, 2025
86
No problem about asking i understand the want to.

Getting a lot of DMs about the source so im just going to put something here for anyone reading.

I know it is disappointing but I cannot and will not share the source, i cannot morally or ethically allow myself to be the one that gave you the means to end your life - please don't ask me for it, i'm very sorry and i hope u find peace
 
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BradGuy123

Student
Jul 6, 2025
133
It's so simple yet taste so bad ...
I've heard it tastes really bad. Do you know what it tastes like? Can it be compared to anything I might have tasted before? Is it like drinking really salty water?
 
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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,013
I've heard it tastes really bad. Do you know what it tastes like? Can it be compared to anything I might have tasted before? Is it like drinking really salty water?
It taste like a chemical salt water, it has the consistency of soap or something but has the taste of overly salted water
 
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BradGuy123

Student
Jul 6, 2025
133
It taste like a chemical salt water, it has the consistency of soap or something but has the taste of overly salted water
Yuck. That sounds awful. It could even be worse than that nasty colonoscopy prep liquid. That's one of the things I have to put up with because I'm old. :smiling:
 
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BradGuy123

Student
Jul 6, 2025
133
It taste like a chemical salt water, it has the consistency of soap or something but has the taste of overly salted water
After I replied last night, I thought of something else. If you know what it tastes like you must have actually tasted it. Perhaps you gave it a trial run or perhaps you had a failed attempt to CTB. What was your attempt like? Did you feel nauseous? Did you have a hard time breathing? Did you experience pain, discomfort, or panic? If you're not comfortable talking about it, I understand. If you do answer, thanks in advance.
 
Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,013
After I replied last night, I thought of something else. If you know what it tastes like you must have actually tasted it. Perhaps you gave it a trial run or perhaps you had a failed attempt to CTB. What was your attempt like? Did you feel nauseous? Did you have a hard time breathing? Did you experience pain, discomfort, or panic? If you're not comfortable talking about it, I understand. If you do answer, thanks in advance.
Ive taken sn three times and kn once . I almost die done time but ... I'm still here...
It sucks
 
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39hatsune

39hatsune

aaahhh !!!!!!!!!
Dec 9, 2025
91
Ive taken sn three times and kn once . I almost die done time but ... I'm still here...
It sucks
sorry if this is insensitive and you dont have to answer, but how did you survive? did you get caught?

im sorry for the way life has been for you to feel the need to take it as well 💗
 
Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,013
sorry if this is insensitive and you dont have to answer, but how did you survive? did you get caught?

im sorry for the way life has been for you to feel the need to take it as well 💗
Caught,called for help ,low purity
 
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dalemar

Arcanist
Nov 20, 2025
454
Ive taken sn three times and kn once . I almost die done time but ... I'm still here...
Have you considered the chance that you might be immortal?
BTW, is it true that KN tastes worse than KN? This information would be useful for others in the forum.
 
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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,013
Have you considered the chance that you might be immortal?
BTW, is it true that KN tastes worse than KN? This information would be useful for others in the forum.
I'm not immortal I've died. Kn taste like drinking a battery , sn taste like drinking salt water.... kn is worse.
 
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kouna

kouna

Soon CTB by fsh
Dec 14, 2025
71
No problem about asking i understand the want to.

Getting a lot of DMs about the source so im just going to put something here for anyone reading.

I know it is disappointing but I cannot and will not share the source, i cannot morally or ethically allow myself to be the one that gave you the means to end your life - please don't ask me for it, i'm very sorry and i hope u find peace

So, did it go through customs?
 
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AmateurXhunter

Member
Dec 19, 2025
6
lucky you, ive been looking for a source, but i guess im stupid
 
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Zaphkiel

IDK
May 13, 2023
295
Caught,called for help ,low purity
Were you using anti emetic or just raw?
Did you think you'd have died for the first two cases?
Sorry if it's insensitive : i have SN but no anti emetics
 
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RinneOfAragon

Student
Jan 2, 2025
167
I'm absolutely desperate right now for sn or kn. not sure what to do. 😭😢😥
 
dragon.//

dragon.//

Member
Nov 5, 2025
50
omg everyone says the same thing just give the fucking source
 
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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,013
Were you using anti emetic or just raw?
Did you think you'd have died for the first two cases?
Sorry if it's insensitive : i have SN but no anti emetics
I didn't take anything extra, I just recommend people fast for 12 hours instead of 8. The second time I had cardiac arrest... I thought I was going to die but I woke up in the hospital with a tube down my throat.
 

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