Story SN-Ingestion Report: My Terrifying Brush with SN-Fueled Hypoxia Hell

[Dante_]

You survived an attempt? Was it similar experience to OP's?

Yes i did, quite a number of weeks ago, I ingested rougly just under half of 9 grams of sn in 50ml of water and over about an hour, i experienced the usual symptoms such as a fast heart rate (160bpm was the highest but that was when i walked around but on average, it was around 110-130bpm), it was also audible in my ears and i felt it on my face, cyanosis, lightheadedness, headache, dizziness, tinnitus (right ear was ringing), and muffled hearing for both of my ears, profound weakness but this progressed much more before losing consciousness, Appearance changes included lightly colored purple tongue and discolored fingers.

I mean i was able to see it all since I was walking and upright until I couldn't anymore and laid in bed after vomiting out whatever amount was left in my stomach after drinking water to slow down absorption but i still went unconscious for almost 2 hours, during this point, i do remember a brief moment of awareness where i couldnt move at all with my heart still racing but it was slower than before and i went out again, toward the end of it, i wanted to get up but again, i couldn't, my back and legs were basically immobilized from the lack of oxygen until I finally could but my sats took hours to climb back up above 90% and then the morning, well...I basically slept again as if I hadn't at all so my brain/body took a huge hit from all that, for about a week I had abdominal pain to deal with as the only "long term issue".

My oxygen sats were 78% at their lowest but it could've lower considering co-oximetry is more accurate than any pulse oximeter even if the one i had was pretty good.

In short, what i drank was definitely enough to cause death but just short of it if i did not acted as i did which was more subconscious than anything else even if i didnt care if I died, I was oddly calm too and wasnt in any particular stress or panic although until I saw my cyanosis was progressing, I understood I probably went as far as I did without realizing it.

Edit: For full disclosure, this goes far as to say, please DO NOT test ingest this substance, I liken it to the analogy of touching a really hot stove plate just to see when its totally worth avoiding and being affected by it mentally thereafter by the experience, the consequences are not worth it.

PSA - DO NOT test-ingest SN

As users are aware, this platform advocates for personal bodily autonomy and supports individuals' rational choices regarding how they wish to live or die. However, there have been recent posts from users who have been "testing" their sodium nitrite (SN) supply—not for the purpose of an actual...

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[dalemar]

Yes i did, quite a number of weeks ago, I ingested rougly just under half of 9 grams of sn in 50ml of water and over about an hour, i experienced the usual symptoms such as a fast heart rate (160bpm was the highest but that was when i walked around but on average, it was around 110-130bpm), it was also audible in my ears and i felt it on my face, cyanosis, lightheadedness, headache, dizziness, tinnitus (right ear was ringing), and muffled hearing for both of my ears, profound weakness but this progressed much more before losing consciousness, Appearance changes included lightly colored purple tongue and discolored fingers.

I mean i was able to see it all since I was walking and upright until I couldn't anymore and laid in bed after vomiting out whatever amount was left in my stomach after drinking water to slow down absorption but i still went unconscious for almost 2 hours, during this point, i do remember a brief moment of awareness where i couldnt move at all with my heart still racing but it was slower than before and i went out again, toward the end of it, i wanted to get up but again, i couldn't, my back and legs were basically immobilized from the lack of oxygen until I finally could but my sats took hours to climb back up above 90% and then the morning, well...I basically slept again as if I hadn't at all so my brain/body took a huge hit from all that, for about a week I had abdominal pain to deal with as the only "long term issue".

My oxygen sats were 78% at their lowest but it could've lower considering co-oximetry is more accurate than any pulse oximeter even if the one i had was pretty good.

In short, what i drank was definitely enough to cause death but just short of it if i did not acted as i did which was more subconscious than anything else even if i didnt care if I died, I was oddly calm too and wasnt in any particular stress or panic although until I saw my cyanosis was progressing, I understood I probably went as far as I did without realizing it.

Edit: For full disclosure, this goes far as to say, please DO NOT test ingest this substance, I liken it to the analogy of touching a really hot stove plate just to see when its totally worth avoiding and being affected by it mentally thereafter by the experience, the consequences are not worth it.

PSA - DO NOT test-ingest SN

As users are aware, this platform advocates for personal bodily autonomy and supports individuals' rational choices regarding how they wish to live or die. However, there have been recent posts from users who have been "testing" their sodium nitrite (SN) supply—not for the purpose of an actual...

sanctioned-suicide.net

Did you go to ER or asked for help?
Do you still have the stomach issues?

 

[Dante_]

Did you go to ER or asked for help?
Do you still have the stomach issues?

No to both.

 

[Blueberry Panic]

Yes i did, quite a number of weeks ago, I ingested rougly just under half of 9 grams of sn in 50ml of water and over about an hour, i experienced the usual symptoms such as a fast heart rate (160bpm was the highest but that was when i walked around but on average, it was around 110-130bpm), it was also audible in my ears and i felt it on my face, cyanosis, lightheadedness, headache, dizziness, tinnitus (right ear was ringing), and muffled hearing for both of my ears, profound weakness but this progressed much more before losing consciousness, Appearance changes included lightly colored purple tongue and discolored fingers.

I mean i was able to see it all since I was walking and upright until I couldn't anymore and laid in bed after vomiting out whatever amount was left in my stomach after drinking water to slow down absorption but i still went unconscious for almost 2 hours, during this point, i do remember a brief moment of awareness where i couldnt move at all with my heart still racing but it was slower than before and i went out again, toward the end of it, i wanted to get up but again, i couldn't, my back and legs were basically immobilized from the lack of oxygen until I finally could but my sats took hours to climb back up above 90% and then the morning, well...I basically slept again as if I hadn't at all so my brain/body took a huge hit from all that, for about a week I had abdominal pain to deal with as the only "long term issue".

My oxygen sats were 78% at their lowest but it could've lower considering co-oximetry is more accurate than any pulse oximeter even if the one i had was pretty good.

In short, what i drank was definitely enough to cause death but just short of it if i did not acted as i did which was more subconscious than anything else even if i didnt care if I died, I was oddly calm too and wasnt in any particular stress or panic although until I saw my cyanosis was progressing, I understood I probably went as far as I did without realizing it.

Edit: For full disclosure, this goes far as to say, please DO NOT test ingest this substance, I liken it to the analogy of touching a really hot stove plate just to see when its totally worth avoiding and being affected by it mentally thereafter by the experience, the consequences are not worth it.

PSA - DO NOT test-ingest SN

As users are aware, this platform advocates for personal bodily autonomy and supports individuals' rational choices regarding how they wish to live or die. However, there have been recent posts from users who have been "testing" their sodium nitrite (SN) supply—not for the purpose of an actual...

sanctioned-suicide.net

Yeah remember when I tested my sn too I have no idea how much a took but I ended up in the hospital.

 

[Xiaojiu]

Yes i did, quite a number of weeks ago, I ingested rougly just under half of 9 grams of sn in 50ml of water and over about an hour, i experienced the usual symptoms such as a fast heart rate (160bpm was the highest but that was when i walked around but on average, it was around 110-130bpm), it was also audible in my ears and i felt it on my face, cyanosis, lightheadedness, headache, dizziness, tinnitus (right ear was ringing), and muffled hearing for both of my ears, profound weakness but this progressed much more before losing consciousness, Appearance changes included lightly colored purple tongue and discolored fingers.

I mean i was able to see it all since I was walking and upright until I couldn't anymore and laid in bed after vomiting out whatever amount was left in my stomach after drinking water to slow down absorption but i still went unconscious for almost 2 hours, during this point, i do remember a brief moment of awareness where i couldnt move at all with my heart still racing but it was slower than before and i went out again, toward the end of it, i wanted to get up but again, i couldn't, my back and legs were basically immobilized from the lack of oxygen until I finally could but my sats took hours to climb back up above 90% and then the morning, well...I basically slept again as if I hadn't at all so my brain/body took a huge hit from all that, for about a week I had abdominal pain to deal with as the only "long term issue".

My oxygen sats were 78% at their lowest but it could've lower considering co-oximetry is more accurate than any pulse oximeter even if the one i had was pretty good.

In short, what i drank was definitely enough to cause death but just short of it if i did not acted as i did which was more subconscious than anything else even if i didnt care if I died, I was oddly calm too and wasnt in any particular stress or panic although until I saw my cyanosis was progressing, I understood I probably went as far as I did without realizing it.

Edit: For full disclosure, this goes far as to say, please DO NOT test ingest this substance, I liken it to the analogy of touching a really hot stove plate just to see when its totally worth avoiding and being affected by it mentally thereafter by the experience, the consequences are not worth it.

PSA - DO NOT test-ingest SN

As users are aware, this platform advocates for personal bodily autonomy and supports individuals' rational choices regarding how they wish to live or die. However, there have been recent posts from users who have been "testing" their sodium nitrite (SN) supply—not for the purpose of an actual...

sanctioned-suicide.net

Thanks for sharing! I'm sorry you went through what you did :( I hope you're feeling way better now. Was it an intentional CTB? And do you feel any pains?

 

[Dante_]

Thanks for sharing! I'm sorry you went through what you did :( I hope you're feeling way better now. Was it an intentional CTB? And do you feel any pains?

Way better? Physically yeah I am, mentally...its obviously more complex than that regarding what happened and having the know how of what it actually feels like when your own body shuts down bit by bit. Im still reeling from that in more ways than one. Was it intentional? not quite since I didnt take 20-25g and well I dont count that as a "real" attempt sometimes when looking back, it was done under immense dissociation hence why i could sit through all the symptoms and not call for help once.

 

[Xiaojiu]

Way better? Physically yeah I am, mentally...its obviously more complex than that regarding what happened and having the know how of what it actually feels like when your own body shuts down bit by bit. Im still reeling from that in more ways than one. Was it intentional? not quite since I didnt take 20-25g and well I dont count that as a "real" attempt sometimes when looking back, it was done under immense dissociation hence why i could sit through all the symptoms and not call for help once.

Do you feel like you were kind of traumatized by what you experienced? So, it was just a spur in the moment kind of thing without any prep? Even if it wasn't intentional, I'm glad that you're doing way better I just wanted to let you know that since I have been able to have an account here, I appreciate what you do as a mod for the forum

 

[Dante_]

Do you feel like you were kind of traumatized by what you experienced? So, it was just a spur in the moment kind of thing without any prep? Even if it wasn't intentional, I'm glad that you're doing way better I just wanted to let you know that since I have been able to have an account here, I appreciate what you do as a mod for the forum

Hope @Chemi doesnt mind since this is her thread but okay, am I traumatized? I'll lay it all out there like this :

Its a two part for me, it brought me much closer to understanding why this method worked so well for my friend as it eventually did 4 months ago when she passed when she and i discussed her attempts and many others, sure there's much discourse around its peacefulness and what not but I do what I can with what the circumstances present and since im never on the right side of em, this will do and im fine with that for what I experienced although it was a bit worrying to see my sats drop to 85% 20 mins after drinking it where I thought it would stop but it kept dropping to 80 and 79 then 78%, I even managed to watch anime while I was going through the symptoms before I forced myself to throw up which everything got out thanks to the water I drank and from there, memory is quite a bit hazy since that was right around the time I got really weak and lost consciousness.

Oh it very much was spur of the moment, I took a meto before but that's very neglible since it was a very short time before I drank it.

These are my thoughts alone but it almost scared me as to how easy it works in practicality with some fatal cases ive seen documented myself over the nearly 3 years ive been on ss , how easy it is to be in a precarious position where I did actually need the hospital but didnt think of calling help and thats because the experience wasnt bad for what would've been fatal had i not acted.

Yes also because I know how much it affects people first-hand when I told them, but I was devoid of emotion back then and didn't really think about who would be affected and how they'd react until i saw it, i saw potential in what this causes, what it trades when someone does it and what happens thereafter from the perspective of those left behind.

Anyway, I may be a mod but I broke my own rule from my own thread too, im human and what I did still affects me profoundly in different ways, I can mostly remember the sensory experience up to a point and then its all scribbled apart where I have to pick very specific points to piece it together but it makes sense since my brain was low on oxygen. I guess i could also say it makes being here harder and easier too since I know the thing works on a smaller yet potentially fatal scale as it nearly did but I guess i carry greater responsibility when it comes to the total evaluation of the decision itself and what are determinant factors to me. Not easy to be vulnerable about this since its my one of my more personal stuff but here we are.

Thank you, it means a lot to be appreciated by those who are in this community even if ive been here a while but nevertheless, im grateful to know what i do means something here.

 

[Chemi]

Hope @Chemi doesnt mind since this is her thread

It's alright. It is the same topic as mine, so you sharing more of your experience kinda helps educate people more