Hope this is okay.
I chose this method because I done it without intent to die for years so its familiar but its becoming torturous. I nearly succeeded in sept last year but someone found me & called an ambo. My hemoglobin was 1.7 & i was forced to have blood transfusions. The dr didnt know how i was still alive from hb & orher blood markers.
I was let go & took alot out but couldnt get below the 20s, then my whole body went numb even in my mouth, eventually agreed to ed and told them not to test hb bit they did. I had active advanced directives saying no trestment but they went against their own kings council & forced treated me under anesthesia. I was in hosp a month& its really traumatised me.
I spent tonight crying begging for shit to end, ive had to remove over 7 litres of blood in 2.5 months & im still not dead. The nausea etc can be really bad, this is NOT a peaceful method.
I suspect my hb is about 3.0 all I have is foxgloves, 30x 50mg tramadol, a mountain of benzos and z drugs.
I want to get a hold of opiates but our country has incredibly tight border security so I dont see that working & heroin isnt really available in the country I hear.
I am considering the night night method but it scares me a bit.
Anyone got any ideas. Also what's actually accessible currently in the dark web or similar, ik you can give details I just want to know whats been legit sold
I chose this method because I done it without intent to die for years so its familiar but its becoming torturous. I nearly succeeded in sept last year but someone found me & called an ambo. My hemoglobin was 1.7 & i was forced to have blood transfusions. The dr didnt know how i was still alive from hb & orher blood markers.
I was let go & took alot out but couldnt get below the 20s, then my whole body went numb even in my mouth, eventually agreed to ed and told them not to test hb bit they did. I had active advanced directives saying no trestment but they went against their own kings council & forced treated me under anesthesia. I was in hosp a month& its really traumatised me.
I spent tonight crying begging for shit to end, ive had to remove over 7 litres of blood in 2.5 months & im still not dead. The nausea etc can be really bad, this is NOT a peaceful method.
I suspect my hb is about 3.0 all I have is foxgloves, 30x 50mg tramadol, a mountain of benzos and z drugs.
I want to get a hold of opiates but our country has incredibly tight border security so I dont see that working & heroin isnt really available in the country I hear.
I am considering the night night method but it scares me a bit.
Anyone got any ideas. Also what's actually accessible currently in the dark web or similar, ik you can give details I just want to know whats been legit sold
