Sitting on methods

[Retched]

Why can't I just pick one and go? Why is ctb so hard? I'm in so much mental pain. I can't keep living like this.

 

[Johnnythefox]

Yes, it does seem like we're spoilt for choice at times.

 

[MsM3talGamer]

It's not easy overcoming this damned survival instinct. It loves to keep us here to make us suffer more. Hugs if you want them.

 

[Retched]

I keep thinking today is my last day. It keeps not happening.

 

[Retched]

It's not easy overcoming this damned survival instinct. It loves to keep us here to make us suffer more. Hugs if you want them.

Hugs!

 

[Retched]

I have means. I just need to go.

 

[TiredHorse]

I'm really sorry, Retched. It's unbelievable, isn't it? I have the ctb smorgasbord here at my house, several reliable methods, and SI hasn't let me do it. And now I've blundered into a place where I just know it isn't the right time. It isn't like I hurt any less, I just know it isn't what I should do. Damnably frustrating.

 

[Retched]

I'm really sorry, Retched. It's unbelievable, isn't it? I have the ctb smorgasbord here at my house, several reliable methods, and SI hasn't let me do it. And now I've blundered into a place where I just know it isn't the right time. It isn't like I hurt any less, I just know it isn't what I should do. Damnably frustrating.

I can't keep going on. You know I have a buffet going on too. I need to slaughter my SI, stick a fork in me, I'm done.

 

[Hopeless_soul]

I completely relate to that. I need to do it soon. I can't keep living this charade. I've reached rock bottom... Days go by, and I'm still here crying and feeling like a complete piece of garbage. Sometimes, I still force myself to enjoy something for 5 minutes, but that only helps for the avalanche of sadness to keep growing bigger. The anger and disgust I feel for myself are unbearable.

I'm sorry you are in so muh pain, Retched.X

 

[leaps]

You're speaking right to me.

 

[Retched]

I completely relate to that. I need to do it soon. I can't keep living this charade. I've reached rock bottom... Days go by, and I'm still here crying and feeling like a complete piece of garbage. Sometimes, I still force myself to enjoy something for 5 minutes, but that only helps for the avalanche of sadness to keep growing bigger. The anger and disgust I feel for myself are unbearable.

I'm sorry you are in so muh pain, Retched.X

Are we the same person?

 

[21Neberg]

Luckily we've all got this forum. This forum is truly a blessing.

 

[Kdawg2018]

I been sitting on methods for months, I'm with Tiredhorse on this one