Since deciding to CTB..

[bov]

How have you changed?

I've become a markedly worse person

 

[jolo44]

Same. Lost any will to even try.

 

[Lupgevif]

I have been spending more carelessly on videogames, even though I barely feel like playing them. I still live my day to day life normally, but I sure stopped giving my best on everything.

 

[Rue89]

I've been spending money carelessly, mostly on junk food, binge eating, and I've definitely become a worse person, someone I didn't want to become. A lot of people on SS know what I mean by that. I'm trying to work on that and make up for it before I ctb.

 

[VIBRITANNIA]

i've been caring less about what i do. if i fuck something up? it's okay, i'll eventually kill myself. if i say something rude? it's okay, i can always kill myself. i've been using suicide as a reason to act like an asshole.

 

[mooncake]

I've kind of lost all real live connections and the ability to do what i need to, to hold my head above water until i can finally go. Which in turn makes it harder to ctb

 

[XYZ]

I'm the same weirdo with the same problems. I haven't noticed a change. I don't feel zen or anything like that.

 

[Wayfaerer]

I've become much more careless which is the opposite of what I was before and I've lost that filter where I am more direct and open than normal. I also fear almost nothing because anything bad that happens to me is inconsequential.

 

[sullen-girl]

more blunt and honest, no longer let anyone walk over me or hide my feelings just for other people's comfort and benefit