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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
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Every day that passes my situation deteriorates but my depression subsides… A year ago my life collapsed and I made a halfhearted attempt… Since then I've spent every single day pretty much laying on the couch doing nothing and the depression has gradually subsided… I even stopped taking antidepressants thinking I would mentally fall off a cliff but my brain chemistry has adjusted… It's really really hard to muster the energy and inspiration to end my life …
 
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Lauriso

Lauriso

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Jul 26, 2022
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But do you have to now that you feel better?
 
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picklemick

Specialist
Jun 28, 2022
320
Relate to this one. My life is worse than ever. I let it deteriorate incredibly thinking I was just going to die. But I failed. And I'm actually feeling a bit better. But now I'm overwhelmed with the mess
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I'm sorry that you are trapped in this situation. Suicide certainly does seem to require a lot of energy, I wish that it's easier to leave more than anything. I hope that in whatever happens, you find relief from what you are going through. Best wishes.
 
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Hope:-)

Enlightened
Jul 3, 2022
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I'm not sure why you are thinking of ending your life when you are feeling better? Do you mean you are only feeling better because you are laying on a couch and this depresses you? Just trying to understand.
 
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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

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Nov 12, 2021
2,160
I'm not sure why you are thinking of ending your life when you are feeling better? Do you mean you are only feeling better because you are laying on a couch and this depresses you? Just trying to understand.
I think I'm feeling better because my brain chemistry has adjusted after my life collapsed and I stopped taking antidepressants… For months I was in a fog of blackness… But it's just as hopeless as ever… decades of stupid decisions coming into focus
 
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nico1420

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Aug 20, 2021
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I think I'm feeling better because my brain chemistry has adjusted after my life collapsed and I stopped taking antidepressants… For months I was in a fog of blackness… But it's just as hopeless as ever… decades of stupid decisions coming into focus
Totally there myself...it's a check that i cant cover...
 
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Hope:-)

Enlightened
Jul 3, 2022
1,120
My fear of physical pain is always there more than SI. Maybe that's a form of SI I don't know. But it's really getting me down. I'm sure some people relate
 
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Coffeebean77

Well… I tried.
Jul 28, 2022
55
I have a terminology question. Where I am now, in a treatment center, SI refers to suicidal ideation. But on this forum, doesn't it mean "survival instinct"? I'm confused.
 
Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
I have a terminology question. Where I am now, in a treatment center, SI refers to suicidal ideation. But on this forum, doesn't it mean "survival instinct"? I'm confused.
I guess it's both
 
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bloos

Member
Aug 6, 2022
18
I made an attempt last year that has left me with numerous chronic health issues. Now, I'm terrified of attempting again, surviving, and with even worse health consequences as a result
 
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veryhappyhuman

veryhappyhuman

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Aug 25, 2021
340
I made an attempt last year that has left me with numerous chronic health issues. Now, I'm terrified of attempting again, surviving, and with even worse health consequences as a result
What was your failed attempt, if you do not mind sharing?
 
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bloos

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Aug 6, 2022
18
No worries! I drunk sodium hydroxide... was in a coma for two weeks, in hospital recovering for a year, and still have surgeries left to go. Also, I'm new to this community, was wondering how I post a question of my own?
 
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