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twistedtransistor47

twistedtransistor47

I can't survive if this is all that's real
Nov 23, 2024
57
Anyone else spend Christmas alone and about to spend New Years alone? I'm spending both holidays (all holidays actually) watching Youtube in my room. I'm slightly bummed about it but I've had plenty of time to get used to being by myself.

What do you guys have planned?
 
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niki wonoto

Experienced
Oct 10, 2019
232
me (from Indonesia), just alone in my dark room..
 
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maylurker

Experienced
Dec 28, 2025
275
its getting old and uncomfortable to just stay in my room when everybodys celebrating but im too much of a burnt out bum to move out
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,218
i wish i could pull the trigger on my rifle to my head . that's what i plan but very difficult to do .

no i'm not going to believe that i have to plan something for some holiday. a holiday is just another day.

another day when something extremely horrible can happen to me or to anybody.

i believe different things from every human. this is just another reason to get out of this hell.

for example holidays or nothing matters to me except avoiding unbearable pain and my suicide.

i believe in only things with massive evidence. like we are all going to die. 2. unbearable pain or the worst pain and suffering is objectively bad. from these 2 principle and many others my suicide seems to me the only rational goal .

but this isn't even starting. i believe many different things. i haven;t seen anyone type these but usually the opposite or sometthing contrary to what i believe . and i haven't posted these beliefs anywhere not even here.
 
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kuroshimi

kuroshimi

If you're not remembered, then you never existed.
Dec 1, 2025
237
I'm in my parents' house right now, but pretty much rotting in my room in front of my laptop.
 
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RosebyAnyName

RosebyAnyName

Staring at the ceiling for 6 hours
Nov 9, 2023
409
Same here, spending "the holidays" rotting in my room in front of a computer screen.
 
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Rust

Rust

Member
Aug 28, 2024
80
Playing Alan Wake while I wait for the fireworks to ruin the peace.

New year
 
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Dejected 55

Visionary
May 7, 2025
2,600
Always alone, never any plans... it sucks a bit more some of these days than the others because I know there are people doing happy things at least for a little bit and many people have someone to be with at least for a little while...
 
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kunikuzushi

kunikuzushi

sause
Jan 24, 2023
586
Same. I'll be listening to music, watching youtube, alone in my room.
 

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