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idiotmother

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Mar 21, 2025
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I'm on Trintellix, Trazodone, Buspar as well. My only options feel like CTBing or going to the psych ward so they can pull me off some of my meds but when the 7 days in the ward are up, I'll still face withdrawals. I'm so desperate to be off it that I consider ODing with it because they couldn't possibly put me on the med that I overdosed with, right? But I don't think they would care enough to check lmao. My dad already had to witness my mom suffer because of suicide attempts and meds so I just wish for my death to be quick because I don't want him to suffer and be burdened anymore. I was ready to jump the other day but my SI was too strong.. I know I have no hope of recovery. My trauma and my med history have doomed me.
If you think you can come off these drugs with the help of the hospital then it's worth a shot! However, they cannot taper you slowly enough..have you heard of Outro? They help people taper hyperbolically, but are very expensive. Have you been in psych drug withdrawal before?

This all must be hard for your dad as well. How is your mom doing now? I've wanted to jump before too. Still have considered chugging wine, benzos and jumping off a parking garage. So scary though.
 
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traingirl

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Oct 7, 2025
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If you think you can come off these drugs with the help of the hospital then it's worth a shot! However, they cannot taper you slowly enough..have you heard of Outro? They help people taper hyperbolically, but are very expensive. Have you been in psych drug withdrawal before?

This all must be hard for your dad as well. How is your mom doing now? I've wanted to jump before too. Still have considered chugging wine, benzos and jumping off a parking garage. So scary though.
My mom is dead. She jumped out of the window of our home. She was very frail and had osteopenia so her neck broke from a short fall. Sometimes it's hard for me to not blame her for me being in the mess I am in because it severely traumatized me and made me feel like I needed to be on meds. I looked into Outro but they aren't operating in my state which makes me feel more hopeless. I've never been in psych drug withdrawal. I'm too afraid to go off them to experience the withdrawal. I feel like I'm backed into a corner with no options but psych ward or ctb. I even emailed Outro Health about when they would operate in my state and they had no plans. So I figured dying or psych ward it is. If I had a reliable means of CTB, I would be gone right now. I think my dad is going to die from the stress from my mom and now his daughter but I can't help it. I can't believe this is my life. You couldn't make this up.
 
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copioushopelessness

Student
Aug 27, 2025
131
Did you add the Cymbalta? These doctors are abusive gas lighters, I hope they suffer in the afterlife for what they've done to us. My doctor tells me my risperidone dose is super small and it shouldn't affect me like it does. They are so IGNORANT of the dangers of these chemicals. It's absolutely disgusting. I was forced on risperidone in the psych ward and I can't forgive them. They took my daughters mother away. It's so cruel. I'm sorry for your situation too, sounds like we have both suffered too much at the hands of "medicine." You were really med free for twenty years and then forced back on?!
I didn't add on the cymbalta. It's about impossible to quit, like all of them. Which they lie about, tell you meds aren't addictive and to come right off.. another dr. another note on my "non-compliance" I'm not sure what kind of complying they want me to do now that I'm about lobotomized and unable to move. It's almost like they don't want anyone to be a normal part of society.
They said cymbalta would help with the pain of my chronic illness. I would say the only thing these psyche drugs do for pain is numb the ability to react while being in hellish mental/physical torment 'Pain scale 1-10?' Oh you lost the ability to cry? Must not hurt thay bad then. Anything to shut people up and have them internalize the pain. I think it would take sociopaths to call that 'stable emotions' doctors are so cold they expect us to stuff it. The rest of the world is apathetic too.
 
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idiotmother

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Mar 21, 2025
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My mom is dead. She jumped out of the window of our home. She was very frail and had osteopenia so her neck broke from a short fall. Sometimes it's hard for me to not blame her for me being in the mess I am in because it severely traumatized me and made me feel like I needed to be on meds. I looked into Outro but they aren't operating in my state which makes me feel more hopeless. I've never been in psych drug withdrawal. I'm too afraid to go off them to experience the withdrawal. I feel like I'm backed into a corner with no options but psych ward or ctb. I even emailed Outro Health about when they would operate in my state and they had no plans. So I figured dying or psych ward it is. If I had a reliable means of CTB, I would be gone right now. I think my dad is going to die from the stress from my mom and now his daughter but I can't help it. I can't believe this is my life. You couldn't make this up.
Shoot, I'm sorry about your mom, that's truly awful. I'm also sorry that outro has been no help for you, it's stupid thst they aren't available in all the states. I'm not a huge fan of the advice I got on the survivingantidepressants site but a lot of the people on there offer great insight into getting off these poisons. I got unlucky with a stupid, bitchy moderator, such is my luck. If you've never been in withdrawal the you have a much higher chance of being able to get off these drugs and heal. Your brain isnt sensitized yet, that can work to your advantage but it will still be hard to come off.

I'm sorry for all your pain, and your dad's. Life is too unfair, especially for nice, sensitive people.
I didn't add on the cymbalta. It's about impossible to quit, like all of them. Which they lie about, tell you meds aren't addictive and to come right off.. another dr. another note on my "non-compliance" I'm not sure what kind of complying they want me to do now that I'm about lobotomized and unable to move. It's almost like they don't want anyone to be a normal part of society.
They said cymbalta would help with the pain of my chronic illness. I would say the only thing these psyche drugs do for pain is numb the ability to react while being in hellish mental/physical torment 'Pain scale 1-10?' Oh you lost the ability to cry? Must not hurt thay bad then. Anything to shut people up and have them internalize the pain. I think it would take sociopaths to call that 'stable emotions' doctors are so cold they expect us to stuff it. The rest of the world is apathetic too.
Oh yeah, I love how my Benzo has an orange label warning on it but none of the rest do. They're ALL dangerous!! Absolutely disgusting…these drugs shoukd only be given out in the rarest of circumstances but they make too much money off of them. I truly hate healthcare with a passion, they have ruined me and my daughter will be so traumatized whe I'm gone. Idk what else to do, though, I'm suffering so horribly with no end in sight. It's so cruel. Definitely cursed by an evil entity.
 
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HD72

Humpty Dumpty had a great fall
Sep 10, 2023
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Shoot, I'm sorry about your mom, that's truly awful. I'm also sorry that outro has been no help for you, it's stupid thst they aren't available in all the states. I'm not a huge fan of the advice I got on the survivingantidepressants site but a lot of the people on there offer great insight into getting off these poisons. I got unlucky with a stupid, bitchy moderator, such is my luck. If you've never been in withdrawal the you have a much higher chance of being able to get off these drugs and heal. Your brain isnt sensitized yet, that can work to your advantage but it will still be hard to come off.

I'm sorry for all your pain, and your dad's. Life is too unfair, especially for nice, sensitive people.

Oh yeah, I love how my Benzo has an orange label warning on it but none of the rest do. They're ALL dangerous!! Absolutely disgusting…these drugs shoukd only be given out in the rarest of circumstances but they make too much money off of them. I truly hate healthcare with a passion, they have ruined me and my daughter will be so traumatized whe I'm gone. Idk what else to do, though, I'm suffering so horribly with no end in sight. It's so cruel. Definitely cursed by an evil entity.
I am so sorry. I saw u were wanting to get a gun and aim for your heart. Not a good place to aim. The bones there are thick and protect that area very well the bullets can just ricochet off. They say in the mouth is the best.
 
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traingirl

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Oct 7, 2025
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I am so sorry. I saw u were wanting to get a gun and aim for your heart. Not a good place to aim. The bones there are thick and protect that area very well the bullets can just ricochet off. They say in the mouth is the best.
I think u meant to reply to me but this makes sense. I am looking at a Mossberg Maverick 88 or the shockwave but I have no experience with guns so I can only see it going wrong and me blinding myself or blowing off a part of my body. It's hard to get a handgun here but easier to get a shotgun.
 

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