Discussion Selfharm

[selfkillermachine]

Poor english, sorry in advance

Probably someone already made a post about this, but how do you guys often harm yourself? Do your hide so noone get worried? Do you lie when they notice the bruises? And why you do that?

Recently im getting over stressed in my job even with tiny problems that making myself punch and stabbing myself with small sharp obejcts, but even if I try do make it in hide spots I impulsively end up punch in my face and everyone ends up noticing it, it feels awful to lie and they probably know what im doing, but I cant afford to tell whats wrong with me, I dont want to cause troubles, its noone problem, i just want to ctb

 

[notsosillybilly]

i would occasionally cut myself but haven't been able to cuz it'd be hard to hide them, i'm staying at my fwbs + his mom's house, if they saw fresh scars on me that's a new issue that i don't have energy for tbh. hopefully your job becomes less stressful

 

[selfkillermachine]

Not being able to break something, not being able to shout, not being able to redirect your frustation in nothing neither yourself, it must be a hell having to somehow endure the stress without someone finding out

 

[burninghill]

I got caught cutting once when I was 14, stopped and started again (with some blips between) at 18. I haven't been properly caught since and I'm 20.

I cut deliberately visibly on my arms, not my wrists but the outter part with razor blades. I started to get fed up with how messy all of the blood was though since I'd cut deep, so I switched to cigarette burns on my upper wrist close to my hand. My friends have seen but have never said anything and my parents do not know, so I haven't had a problem.

 

[iwkmsssb]

i cut myself on the upper thigh area but i'm starting to run out of room. but i'd say it's the most hidden spot in day to day life. no one knows unless i tell them about it.

 

[SASU-KE]

impulsively end up punch in my face and everyone ends up noticing it, it feels awful to lie and they probably know what im doing

It's probably more likely that they think you're being abused by someone else. But either way it's going to create problems.

 

[selfkillermachine]

It's probably more likely that they think you're being abused by someone else. But either way it's going to creage problem

Some of them know that I harmed myself, its specially to my family that I lie, the last punch I did near my eye, they thought I fell, I know its not good but its better to be that way

 

[insekurity]

daily tbh, only superficial or partial thickness on my thighs because im too embarrassed to go to the er. only the barest minimum effort to hide it, and its a bit too obvious because its cuts and otherwise no one really questions why i have welts from scratching myself everywhere.

mostly to make my disorders visible as otherwise i end up gaslighting myself into thinking theres nothing wrong with me im just fundamentally a disgusting and terrible person. for some reason my meds, diagnoses, papers don't work against the self-minimization and self-gaslighting so i end up relying on cutting, and when they heal or fade i need to reset it.

 

[current93]

ive been self harming since the age of 10 or 11, and i'm now 24 so i unfortunately have a lot of experience. started with just poking myself with sharp objects or scraping shards of broken glass across my skin, which eventually lead to cutting. i've been doing it on and off since then and have a lot of pretty nasty scars, but have managed to hide it from my family and everyone who knows me irl this whole time somehow. It's probably the dumbest coping mechanism imo.

 

[cyan_cat]

I usually do cutting, either thighs or arms, since i don't really care that much if people notice anymore and i usually wear long sleeves anyways. But when i really don't want people to notice i just do bruises. I like it because i can get it to hurt a lot, and people just assume i am clumsy or i can make up an excuse easily. It doesn't feel good to lie to people about it, but sometimes it's better i think.