Story Self Destruction in lieu of CTB

[Aeathelina]

I know that my time is coming to an end but I know me enough to know that it won't be any time soon because I am a coward .
It feels more like I've been on the road to Death for nearly ten years , more like flirting with it through alcohol and drug overdoses and an ever growing Eating Disorder that nearly killed me. I want nothing more than to die but the idea of a violent death scares me on some deep vain level which is impressive because I hate myself

 

[Lone_Gray_Wolf]

We all fight with our very own demons and thoughts, we may want to just leave by N, but perhaps the money or customs is a problem, the SN too; but not so easy to get for everyone. Is hard and the feeling of dragging it out just increases the weight and questioning of 'why am I still here?"; which are not the easiest to deal and can go deep into a rabbit hole.

I can only wish you luck dealing with that.

 

[FuneralCry]

You are not cowardly, of course suicide is very difficult. We are programmed to survive after all. Nobody should have to resort using a violent method, we all deserve a peaceful exit but the society tries to force us to live. Whatever happens, I wish you the best, I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[june]

I've been reading a lot of posts like this. Its tough