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pixi

pixi

how can you escape from yourself?
Jan 11, 2025
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my scars are honestly kind of comforting to me. if nothing else was real, the pain i felt was. you can see it. i just wish not everyone could see them lol. i have a thigh that is honestly more scar tissue than it is normal skin at this point. they're big, raised, pink, red, purple, white scars.

where i live, it's every cutters favorite season coming up, too. SUMMER!!!1!1!1!
my family inherited a nice house on a lake that we have been spending a lot of time at. it has a pool too. but i don't think i could handle any questions from my family about them. i'm already sick of wearing pants in the summer, and i haven't swam in years, and i miss that too. i'm gonna hate being around watching everyone else swim while i can't without possibly getting interrogated.

my leg is definitely attention grabbing. it's very hard to miss. makes me hate that i did this to myself sometimes, but nothing is ever as comforting. i plan on picking the razor back up when im finished writing this too. but at this point, the damage is already done. there's not rlly a point in stopping here.

i just wanna swim </3 i wanna wear shorts by the lake </3 ugh. i don't think id change my scars given the chance though. just whyyyy can other people see them omg :(
 
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Bootleg Astolfo

Bootleg Astolfo

Glorious Bean Plushie
Oct 12, 2020
868
This sounds stupid, but is non ironic advice: Go for a goth/emo style, people won't be as surprised by it and will have more of a ''yeah, i dont know what i expected'' response to it. The more of a ''i dont care'' vibe you have too, the better.
Source: Personal experience as a goth femboy who pretty much constantly has fresh-ish scars everywhere on his arms.
 
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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
4,908
This sounds stupid, but is non ironic advice: Go for a goth/emo style, people won't be as surprised by it and will have more of a ''yeah, i dont know what i expected'' response to it. The more of a ''i dont care'' vibe you have too, the better.
Source: Personal experience as a goth femboy who pretty much constantly has fresh-ish scars everywhere on his arms.
Their family will still likely question them. If anything, they would probably start questioning them even more because of their sudden change in aesthetic.


OP, why don't you try buying a full-body swimsuit or something?
 
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Griever

Griever

SN
May 1, 2025
462
I hate my scars
 
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DivineSpark

DivineSpark

Elementalist
Feb 9, 2025
831
I got permanent scar on my lip, backstory is, I had epileptic seizure and hit my face into door. I was bleeding pretty bad.
 
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SecretDissociation

SecretDissociation

Suicide enthusiast
Sep 11, 2022
394
I kind of wish that too. If only i could see my scars. But then I think, for me, it wouldn't be the same because how would I know my pain is real? Would I be hallucinating it? Imagining it?

I hope you do get to swim! If it's only your thighs you can buy shorts from the male section of the clothing store, and buy them oversized, they're long, wide and should be able to hide scars. And if you have scars on your arm you can buy waterproof sleeves and say that you donn't want to get sunburnt or tanned and that theyre UV protective. You can buy waterproof shorts too, might protect your open wounds from the water, although always bandage and be careful if you choose to swim with them. hope you get to enjoy a swim
 
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Carrot

Carrot

Experienced
Feb 25, 2025
295
At some point my friend who has scars just stopped worrying about it. I personally hide mine just because I consider the well being of others. People still find silly reasons to hate me while I mind my own business.
 
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lillmonix3

lillmonix3

Death as an end in itself
Aug 14, 2023
107
I love my scars.They make me realize how much shit I've been through.They are a kind of reminder of the state I was in, and now I am better.
 
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pixi

pixi

how can you escape from yourself?
Jan 11, 2025
99
This sounds stupid, but is non ironic advice: Go for a goth/emo style, people won't be as surprised by it and will have more of a ''yeah, i dont know what i expected'' response to it. The more of a ''i dont care'' vibe you have too, the better.
Source: Personal experience as a goth femboy who pretty much constantly has fresh-ish scars everywhere on his arms.
i do have an emo style lol. neon green hair, piercings, band tees, skinny jeans, the works :p i'm sure that helps with strangers, but i don't think it would make much of a difference with family which is what im most worried about. thank you though :)
Their family will still likely question them. If anything, they would probably start questioning them even more because of their sudden change in aesthetic.


OP, why don't you try buying a full-body swimsuit or something?
i didn't know there was full body swim suits but that is a possibility. thank you <3
 
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Manic Panic

Manic Panic

Deaths Embrace
Jan 5, 2025
715
I've been self harming for about 16 years of my life . I have scars all over my body and I'm not ashamed of them .
They all tell a story of perseverance and of my struggles.
 
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