Scared of where my consciousness goes

[effemel]

I've never wanted anything more than to die but I can't stop thinking about seeing complete darkness or nothingness. I'm kind of scared about what happens to my consciousness, if it fades to nothing then I shouldn't worry but I am scared.
What if I get reborn and forget about everything I believe in? Like I don't want to keep living as myself or as someone else
I saw this video today about this guy who tried to stab his heart to ctb and he said he felt so free and good before losing consciousness so that makes me worry less, I'd like that euphoric feeling but what if regret kicks in? Argggg I'm thinking to much about it

 

[DeathWish3301]

I've never wanted anything more than to die but I can't stop thinking about seeing complete darkness or nothingness. I'm kind of scared about what happens to my consciousness, if it fades to nothing then I shouldn't worry but I am scared.
What if I get reborn and forget about everything I believe in? Like I don't want to keep living as myself or as someone else
I saw this video today about this guy who tried to stab his heart to ctb and he said he felt so free and good before losing consciousness so that makes me worry less, I'd like that euphoric feeling but what if regret kicks in? Argggg I'm thinking to much about it

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

The conscious mind processes approximately 40 to 50 bits of information per second
that's a very small amount

one can focus or think about only very few concepts at one time

or really you only think about one thing or concept at a time. and a very few relating characteristics that define the main thing your thinking about at that moment or at one time

 

[effemel]

great video honestly, who knows and who cares right? Maybe to stop feeling fear I should stop wanting to know , so many have ctb or died in other ways so I guess I wouldn't feel as afraid.

 

[DeathWish3301]

great video honestly, who knows and who cares right? Maybe to stop feeling fear I should stop wanting to know , so many have ctb or died in other ways so I guess I wouldn't feel as afraid.

I think so too, that's why I like to use it in response to these types of questions. I'm glad it was helpful.

 

[VegasLyra]

I highly recommend you read up on evolution—how it took billions of years for complex conscious life to evolve. There's this great website (onezoom.org) that shows you the evolutionary tree of life, check it out.

I'm saying this because once you think about consciousness from an evolutionary standpoint, you come to the conclusion that it's just a side effect of animals developing more and more complex brains. It's not "real" so to speak. There's no afterlife, no heaven or hell, not even "nothing" as *you* won't be there to experience said nothingness. Consciousness just... goes.

 

[effemel]

I highly recommend you read up on evolution—how it took billions of years for complex conscious life to evolve. There's this great website (onezoom.org) that shows you the evolutionary tree of life, check it out.

I'm saying this because once you think about consciousness from an evolutionary standpoint, you come to the conclusion that it's just a side effect of animals developing more and more complex brains. It's not "real" so to speak. There's no afterlife, no heaven or hell, not even "nothing" as *you* won't be there to experience said nothingness. Consciousness just... goes.

this sounds like a cool research project I'd do if I wanted to be alive for that long. But yeah, thinking of it from that perspective definitely helps me get over that fear, thanks

 

[floatingair]

You are not the body, you are consciousness. You will simply return to being your real self. Do you really think this world came from nothing? This world is like a dream. You are playing a very real looking VR game. Once your out, you go "woah, that was crazy. Thats a nasty game -- I killed myself to get out!" then you proceed to do whatever you desire. You might go back to the game as another virtual reality character, at the beginning of its lifespan (another baby), you might go back to your current character at a monumental spot that avoids what caused you to pursue suicide, or experience any one of the infinite dreams out there.

 

[Hollowman]

You are not the body, you are consciousness. You will simply return to being your real self. Do you really think this world came from nothing? This world is like a dream. You are playing a very real looking VR game. Once your out, you go "woah, that was crazy. Thats a nasty game -- I killed myself to get out!" then you proceed to do whatever you desire. You might go back to the game as another virtual reality character, at the beginning of its lifespan (another baby), you might go back to your current character at a monumental spot that avoids what caused you to pursue suicide, or experience any one of the infinite dreams out there.

Too bad you can't prove any of that.

 

[muu]

You are not the body, you are consciousness. You will simply return to being your real self. Do you really think this world came from nothing? This world is like a dream. You are playing a very real looking VR game. Once your out, you go "woah, that was crazy. Thats a nasty game -- I killed myself to get out!" then you proceed to do whatever you desire. You might go back to the game as another virtual reality character, at the beginning of its lifespan (another baby), you might go back to your current character at a monumental spot that avoids what caused you to pursue suicide, or experience any one of the infinite dreams out there.

this probably isnt true but it's fun to imagine it does. i'd be curious to hear why you think it works this way

 

[floatingair]

this probably isnt true but it's fun to imagine it does. i'd be curious to hear why you think it works this way

Look into the following topics: Remote Viewing, Astral Projection/OBEs, Near Death Experiences, Quantum Immortality, Mandella Effects, Magic/Witchcraft, Energy Work/Chakras, Psychdellics, Lucid Dreaming, Shifting, Meditation/Advanced Meditation (Gateway Tapes / Binaural Beats)

Too bad you can't prove any of that.

Do you believe the world came from nothing? How do you think the big bang happened? What caused that? and what caused that? And what came before that? You don't have an answer. Energy cannot come from nothing. If you are actually interested, the topics I put above will point you in the right direction.

 

[Yogih212]

You are not the body, you are consciousness. You will simply return to being your real self. Do you really think this world came from nothing? This world is like a dream. You are playing a very real looking VR game. Once your out, you go "woah, that was crazy. Thats a nasty game -- I killed myself to get out!" then you proceed to do whatever you desire. You might go back to the game as another virtual reality character, at the beginning of its lifespan (another baby), you might go back to your current character at a monumental spot that avoids what caused you to pursue suicide, or experience any one of the infinite dreams out there.

I have always been a spiritual person but also born a muslim, I belief this too, but it makes things so much more conflicting with the beliefs I grew up in. I anyhow experienced dreams predicting the future, I am still somewhat scared of the afterlife even with these realizations I got over the years, especially considering if I were to CBT, it's in the lowest of the lowest states I have ever been in. And I think that also has an impact on one's crossing over.

Look into the following topics: Remote Viewing, Astral Projection/OBEs, Near Death Experiences, Quantum Immortality, Mandella Effects, Magic/Witchcraft, Energy Work/Chakras, Psychdellics, Lucid Dreaming, Shifting, Meditation/Advanced Meditation (Gateway Tapes / Binaural Beats)

Do you believe the world came from nothing? How do you think the big bang happened? What caused that? and what caused that? And what came before that? You don't have an answer. Energy cannot come from nothing. If you are actually interested, the topics I put above will point you in the right direction.

Add synchronicities to this, thinking of someone, them suddenly messaging you etc etc, we're in constant telepathic communication with one another. One doesn't have to belief this, it's the truth. If you know ya know, so many more things really that we can't fathom with our minds, it's only when you get these realizations through lived experiences that you really start to realize whats up

 

[UserFromNowhere]

Do you believe the world came from nothing? How do you think the big bang happened? What caused that? and what caused that? And what came before that? You don't have an answer. Energy cannot come from nothing. If you are actually interested, the topics I put above will point you in the right direction.

Except that's exactly how it works. I've looked into and actively engaged with all the topics you've talked about in the past, it still doesn't convince me that there's fundamentally anything after life. I won't say there's nothing, I'm agnostic, but I'm not convinced we're bound to return to some greater celestial being. There does have to be a first mover, whether that's the big bang, God, or some other cosmic entity, there is a first mover. A point where nothing existed before it and it somehow came into existence, or that everything has always existed and the expansion simply happened because it did. But just because there has to exist a first mover does not mean it automatically validates spirituality.

To be clear, I'm not saying belief in the supernatural or paranormal is wrong, but I do think fallacious arguments used to defend it, similar to arguments used by iron-clad athiests as if they can proclaim that there is nothing out there when we truly don't know, are misguided at best and downright deceptive/manipulative at worst.