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forgotten girl
- Mar 2, 2026
- 29
i'm so so tired, bone deep exhausted.. can't sleep it away. and i feel rotten. do you ever feel so rotten and fleshy that it feels like future happiness or whatever is just a contortion of your own flesh, like a choreographed puppeting of my body to do the good movements.
you're meant to snap into the good, socially acceptable conformity, but instead i feel dread, and the acute awareness of my mortality and transience.
supposedly aware, yet not even aware of my surroundings. deeper regressions into my psyche, more rationalizations and looming imprisonment and constriction.
i hate the feeling inside of myself, the swollen lack. i beg to be released from it.
you're meant to snap into the good, socially acceptable conformity, but instead i feel dread, and the acute awareness of my mortality and transience.
supposedly aware, yet not even aware of my surroundings. deeper regressions into my psyche, more rationalizations and looming imprisonment and constriction.
i hate the feeling inside of myself, the swollen lack. i beg to be released from it.
