Ropes

[Doodeliedone]

Hi I am new here and feel some relief to have found this forum where there is options by talking about a way out or maybe hang around a little longer. I have been reading for a few weeks now and sometimes I can't believe how sweet everyone is to each other! I have been on Facebook pages for people with depression but got sick of the "it will get beter, don't say this and that, we can't talk about this topic, you have something to live for.." so no support at the end.

Well, I was wondering, are there any of you that get triggered by ropes? Today I was in the supermarket. I saw some ropes and everytime they sell them I just stand there and be hypnotized and start thinking, would it work with this rope? Would it even work at all.. At the end I am too scared to buy one and actually use it but it happens everytime I am in that supermarket and they are in the shelves. Sometimes when I think this was it. I have to do it today and not be a pussy, I drive to a construction market and start looking for the right equipment to attach the rope to the ceiling as well.. Even tho trough the years I find out this would not be my prefered method because I am to insecure to believe it will 100% succeed. Thank you for reading

 

[Lady black]

Yes i know this feeling, I like to see ropes and imagine myself hanging at the end of these ropes. I also imagine myself hanging fromevery possible places (like trees) when I get there

 

[BPD Barbie]

Not with ropes but with heights. I drive past a crane often and wonder if the fall would kill me. Even though I'm not actively suicidal that thought always comes.

 

[Suicide_vampire]

I'm suicidal every day, and this is the first place I found that I could speak openly. There is so much that triggers me and if I didn't have my dog I'd probably act on it.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Hi I am new here and feel some relief to have found this forum where there is options by talking about a way out or maybe hang around a little longer. I have been reading for a few weeks now and sometimes I can't believe how sweet everyone is to each other! I have been on Facebook pages for people with depression but got sick of the "it will get beter, don't say this and that, we can't talk about this topic, you have something to live for.." so no support at the end.

This is why this place truly is a Sanctionary for the suicidal because EVERY other place on the internet they will either give you the typical bullshit advice or even delete your comment or ban you for making a post about suicide, they think they are doing good but they are ostracizing people for being suicidal.

 

[HannahB]

Yeah, it hits me like somthing I have forgotten to do. I see ropes and immediately think I need to get it over with. I'm always pissed I forgot or got distracted by life again.