Venting Rollercoaster of life

[zjay-0v3rit!]

I took a break from this site for a min.... It was consuming me a bit more than I wanted. I ordered some SN, and there was an issue with the package and ended up not getting it. I always feel like there's something holding onto me so tightly and I hate it. I dont want to be here anymore. I had a sliver of hope for a day or two then I snapped out of it and remembered that I hate being alive. At this point I just need to sort things out for the rest of the month then I will finally be free and at peace. I just cant handle it anymore. I am exhausted.