Ripening of the suicidal resolve

[Kumachan]

At first it was just playing with the idea, still secretly hoping things would change. As time goes by nothing changes, and thoughts of suicide are getting more persistent. It feels like some sort of maturing is taking place... Its like the mind is trying to avoid the inevitable by scanning for available options, strategies, thinking about this and that, but every thought eventually leads back to...

 

[Darkhaven]

It's difficult to get out once you start to walk this road.
I learned that last year.

 

[Nem]

It wouldn't be this bad if life wasn't a shit hole filled to the brim with shitty people. Sure there are nice people around but I've met a shit ton of people that would've done the world a favour by offing themselves
Peace/hugs

 

[Kumachan]

It's difficult to get out once you start to walk this road.
I learned that last year.

You mean once CTB first crosses your mind it will always stay in the background? I guess you are right...

 

[PrettyMoose]

It doesn't help that with age things progressively get worse. More health problems, more witnessing suffering and death around you of people and animals you care about, more opportunity for more shitty things in general to happen, the less tasteful the few good things become, the more mundane everything becomes. After a while you master the thousand yard stare.

"It gets better" my ass.

 

[Darkhaven]

You mean once CTB first crosses your mind it will always stay in the background? I guess you are right...

Not always, but it sure as hell seems to be the "rule of thumb"