Venting relapsing

[HowlingCoyote]

the urge to relapse on my drinking problem is so very heavy. i keep getting drinks from work that i get to bring home (i clean for a living and find drinks left behind by people), and i have 4 bottles in my fridge now, and i want to drink them all in one sitting whenever it gets bad. i dont wanna feel anything anymore i want to forget i want that temporary feeling of relief from the pain of my existence. im scared im gonna fail resisting the urge and just down every last drop all at once

 

[behindtheveil]

I am sorry for what you are going through. If only a miracle happens in everyone's life, whatever it may be but should take away this misery, helplessness and longing we all feel.

 

[Uncounted1846]

I understand your pain! I've been sober since 2011, but on really bad days I still think about gin. and if I was given three months to live I'd probably have one last drink. Same for the day I CTB I'd probably have a drink goodbye. To finally toast the end of my misery.