Discussion Regrets in Life

[divinemistress87]

37. Meeting the man that caused my stroke and electroshock therapy

 

[bye_world]

Im 21. I cant decide if my biggest regret is what I did to hurt my best friend so badly before we fell out, or not opening the messages he sent me applogizing and trying to reconnect the week before he killed himself. maybe its not kms back when i was 18 and planning to do it together with him.

Kind of same for me

 

[Zyntkalla]

28. My whole life has been a regret and so much emotional pain from things that I wanted that I could never get. One of my dreams was I wanted to just to be normal, an average. But no I was born with brain damage. It affects my memory understanding, and it affects my right eye.That's what really hurts the most. I am very self conscious of all my issues makes me have very low self esteem. It makes me feel useless and i'm always constantly worried about keeping up with work. What I have to live with never feels like it's good enough for me. Most of the time I wish I was dead years ago.

 

[Stan Swiftie]

What are your ages on here and your biggest regrets in life :(

50M
My biggest regret in life was when I took a drink of Drano not long after turning 18
I should've drank the entire fucking container
It never got better

 

[bananaolympus]

30 and pushing my childhood friends away i became a shut in, they tried to reach me multiple times, early and late teens even in my early 20s tried for a last time and i ignored any chance of reconnection

 

[HollowDrop]

30
Being naive enough to ever give my loyalty to other people only to time and time again be used or thrown away.

 

[lamy's sacred sleep]

14+4

My biggest regret is probably not getting actual help for my mental health until honestly way too late.

that's a regret for someone who's recovering
it's probably actually telling anyone, who could stop me, about my suicidal ideation.

 

[csdfghjjk_user]

30, being too empathetic and at the same time focusing too much on myself. I wish I stayed at my old job or behaved more responsible and realistically. Not have my head in the clouds. Not really understanding the consequences of my actions somehow and not thinking longterm. (And at the same time getting anxious about the future, well how unnecessary was that. Could have just enjoyed what I had I guess)

 

[Michelstaedter]

I regret having sought a girlfriend as a way to "save myself" or feel loved. I wish I had loved my pets, who were the true love of my life, and now that they're dead, I realize I was the biggest idiot of idiots for not seeing that.

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

Nearing 60. Too many to list. Being born would be the main one. Second would be, not being able to ctb when I was a teenager. Not brave enough, no resources, not aware of the misery that awaited.

 

[no-hope-no-future]

I spent too much time trusting other people and not enough time trusting my myself. I'm more capable then I think I am but unfortunately was too late to work that out. My own stupidity has killed me.

 

[ollie]

I'm struggling with BDD from undesirable plastic surgery.

I'm starting to feel like I'll never have a real chance at life. I worry that I'll never be in a relationship again, never have another boyfriend, never get married, never have kids, and never be truly happy.

I'm 37, and I've been struggling with this for two years. People tell me I'm beautiful, but it doesn't mean anything to me because I see myself the way I see myself.

My legs have ripples that look like cellulite running down my thighs, and the elasticity of my stomach skin has been compromised. I'm not toned at all, and I don't feel like I ever can be again. I feel so disgusting and disfigured that I can't even experience a moment of joy. I can't live life. Even thoughts of just simply being with a husband and kids and enjoying life in our home, nights outside in the yard, events (fairs, concerts, travel) make my heart hurt to the extreme because it's all I ever wanted and I feel left behind while life keeps moving and people around me keep going on to the next chapter of life and here I am grieving over the life I could have had. It makes my heart want to explode all day, everyday.

I used to be so extroverted. I loved life, had fun, was funny, full of energy, and always wanted to do everything. Now I isolate and don't want to do anything. I was beautiful. I loved dressing up, being around family and friends, spreading joy to people and strangers alike, and simply enjoying life. Now I can't do any of it. I had so much potential for living a normal, happy, average life, maybe even an above-average one. Now I feel like a waste. I feel shame, ugliness, disgust, and deep regret. I dissociate and feel like I'm not even living, as if I'm watching life happen and this can't possibly be my real reality.

I was in a narcissistic, abusive relationship that took my youth. He had wandering eyes, and I caught him many times in situations involving other women. It wasn't full-out cheating, but it was clearly inappropriate and attention-seeking. Every time, I felt like I wasn't good enough. I thought I needed to look more like the women he was interested in so I could be enough. That is what led me to plastic surgery. That relationship withered away my self-esteem.

I thought surgery would be my glow-up. I thought he would stop looking at other women, and that I would finally feel better about myself. It didn't work. What it did do was show me how much I had let external factors dictate how I felt about myself. (Young and dumb, I know.) I don't see how any man will want me now and if I can truly find peace in my body.

Now, I even feel like everyone looks at me as a waste and a failure (not everyone knows about my body situation - only those closest to me do) haven't done anything with my life, and because of this, I can't even fix the mistake of wasting so many years on someone who treated me the way he did.

Therapy and meds aren't helping. I have ADHD, PTSD, and OCD. Adderall has been the only thing that has helped me move at all, and now even that is starting to lose its effect.

I just don't know how to move on with my life. I don't think I can live this way any longer. This isn't a life. Relief is only found through isolation, isolation from the world engenders in me the worst loneliness, FOMO, and existential torment.

How and could I even get beyond this? Trying to find the the easiest least painful way to ctb because I can't go on like this.

 

[Polyxo]

24. I wish I could have graduated college but I flunked out and now I depend on my parents. I don't do anything or go out. I don't have friends IRL. Im just so pathetic.

 

[Cry Baby <3]

25 my biggest regret is using porn as a stimulant so i can work and learn more IT really worked for me since i was 12 i used dopamine from IT to overcome my limits i achieved many academic succeses (3 scholarships and many more) even become member of Polish Writers Union but i suffer from severe depression and personality disorders now IT was not worth all this pain and anxiety. Do not use porn IT is a poison for brain in long run .

I know your comment is a bit old now, but (off topic sorry) wow I've never seen or met anyone from Poland on here!! Also congrats on becoming a member of the writers union and wish you well <33

 

[Utynmo]

24, When I decided not to go through with CTB 6 years ago. I stopped because of a woman I met on the trip that was supposed to be my last. Now we no longer talk, but I know she'll be on my mind at the end of everything.

 

[SchizoPolyGymnast]

I'm 35, soon to be 36. I deeply regret, more than anyone can imagine, not being able to adequately treat my brain injury condition earlier in life. My life would be so different now and sometimes the grief is hard to take.

 

[Ashu]

What are your ages on here and your biggest regrets in life :(

54. Going to university and marrying my wife.

 

[darksouls]

49 the only decision I do not regret is that I did not bring children into this sick world