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buriedinmyhead

buriedinmyhead

If pain can purify the heart, mine will be pure
Mar 24, 2026
145
I need to destroy the source of all my pain (my brain) and a shotgun is the best way to do it. I can't get one yet because of restrictions in my state, and I hate it so much. I NEED TO DIE ALREADY. I can already imagine myself doing it, pulling the trigger. I've had dreams where I've done it. I need to do it.
 
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Uncounted1846

Student
Jan 17, 2026
128
I fall asleep at night imagining blowing my head off with a shotgun. You aren't alone in that. How long until you're clear to get one?
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I understand as all I want is to be free from this torturous, cruel existence, I hope you find the freedom you search for.
 
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buriedinmyhead

buriedinmyhead

If pain can purify the heart, mine will be pure
Mar 24, 2026
145
I fall asleep at night imagining blowing my head off with a shotgun. You aren't alone in that. How long until you're clear to get one?
Not for a while, unfortunately. While I could technically buy a shotgun while under 21 in my state, its very difficult, and most dealers will still refuse to sell. So not until 2027, unless I find someone out of state willing to overlook the federal laws.
 
katatonix

katatonix

Member
Jun 6, 2026
11
Came to a southern state from New York and was finally able to get a .357 magnum. It took a lot of hoops to get it. Now I just have to figure out the best place to aim
 
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isthisthingon

Specialist
May 16, 2026
382
Came to a southern state from New York and was finally able to get a .357 magnum. It took a lot of hoops to get it. Now I just have to figure out the best place to aim
My .357 doesn't fit in my mouth, the option for me seems to be slightly above and behind the ear. Still waiting to pull the trigger. It's very hard. Any day now.
 
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katatonix

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Jun 6, 2026
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My .357 doesn't fit in my mouth, the option for me seems to be slightly above and behind the ear. Still waiting to pull the trigger. It's very hard. Any day now.
I'm at the same point. It's too big for the mouth so I'm thinking side of my head, same spot. I feel like something will push me over the edge and I'll be there, but I'm not rushing it. I know I'll know when it's time , I feel like you will too
 
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urgent

Why do I have to suffer unbearably! HELP PLEASE!
Dec 6, 2025
335
I need to destroy the source of all my pain (my brain) and a shotgun is the best way to do it. I can't get one yet because of restrictions in my state, and I hate it so much. I NEED TO DIE ALREADY. I can already imagine myself doing it, pulling the trigger. I've had dreams where I've done it. I need to do it.
Me Too! I'm in so much pain.
 

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