Rate your suicidal thoughts thread (1-10)

[toasterbath]

10^(10^100) a googolplex. even this site doesn't bring me solace because it reminds me how much worse i have it than most people

 

[leeloosnow]

Def 10 that warm embrace calls me kindly

 

[Callie Arcale]

10

 

[tofargone]

about 9 9 3/4

 

[myfinalform]

9

 

[DarknessAtNoon]

9. I don't think I've gone 5 minutes without thinking about it the past few months. I don't see how I can survive much longer like this.

 

[seaweaves]

9 for amount of intrusive thoughts
5 for the actual impulse to act

so call it 7 to split the difference

 

[nootthenoot]

Eh maybe a 8 or 9. Only thing stopping me is the fact that I want to stick to my planned date, but even then sometimes it feels like I should just do it tonight. If I had access to SN or N, it would probably be a 10.

 

[EnnuiCat]

Last few days a 10. Today about a 7-8. Most days about a 5.

 

[Hirokami]

8. Maybe even a 9. My life has been hell.

 

[BitterlyAlive_]

8. I felt very calm emotionally today, but…mm…

 

[ImsooDone1N]

9.98/10.00 Shitty and Upset

 

[BitterlyAlive_]

7.

 

[hiddenbpd]

About a 6 or 7. I'm obsessively thinking about it, but there's not much of an urge right now.

 

[earshurt]

4, right now. Still dealing with 24/7 passive suicidal ideation as per usual, but I have some distractions to think about.

 

[ImsooDone1N]

9.50/10.00 Im really disappointed and upset

 

[lucid]

8

 

[greatjustice]

fluctuates between 6 and 8. Mornings/Evenings are my 8s, when I have the most thoughts. Midday is not as bad.

 

[StolenLife]

10/10 fuck psych wards.

 

[achromatic]

Right now about 6 though it goes up and down often. They are here, constantly here and about specific method but now I don't have courage to make them reality - Im wierdly hesistant and probably I have to halt myself for now. SN is in my shopping cart my address is filled but I cannot bring myself to pay. I though that I would do this as soon as I get money on my bank account but lol it turned out that no. Tbh Im pretty sure I would act if I had powder right in front of me so maybe thats why Im stopping here. I have to wait for heart change.

 

[RandomDude1234]

8. Have already decided my date for a while now.

 

[LesbianCarpetPython]

5 today

 

[disabledlife]

10 every time

 

[thedaywillcome]

9

 

[ImsooDone1N]

9.97/10.00

 

[Silent.Tears]

1 is very low suicidality, 10 is very extreme acute suicidality. I miss the old thread (which is deleted) that is way I want to revive him.

My suicidal thoughts today are a 4. I have some distractions and responsibilities which prevent more of these thoughts.

10

 

[lifeORdeath]

4-5 today

 

[noname223]

Okay 9. I might have to kill myself soon and if the thing which I think about happens there is no way around. Maybe I am dead within a month. One of the most nightmarish scenarios seems likely. I will post about it soon in suicide discussion.
It gonna a long thread but I am utterly shocked.

 

[lifeORdeath]

Okay 9. I might have to kill myself soon and if the thing which I think about happens there is no way around. Maybe I am dead within a month. One of the most nightmarish scenarios seems likely. I will post about it soon in suicide discussion.
It gonna a long thread but I am utterly shocked.

I have similar situation I feel 7 or more today. Don't want to do anything but life around. Got yelled at because of it and told that I am an idiot and mentally f'd up and that person can't take it anymore and wants to walk out of our lives.

 

[Per Ardua Ad Astra]

10