Rate your suicidal thoughts thread (1-10)

[rhysion]

8-9 at the present moment


Feel like a rat in a too small cage. Im literally the 'everything is fine' dog meme at the moment.

 

[ImpairedLowlife]

7.5/10
University is fking scary. I feel like I'm too dumb for it and will get kicked on the very first year. Doing some sh again after long clean time.

 

[Fktw0rld]

8 to 9 today. Staying isolated and away from others.

 

[Hope:-)]

It's been 10 for years, and it will never change again

That's how I feel.x

 

[No blackangel]

10

 

[Hope:-)]

10. I so badly want this to end tonight.

 

[outrider567]

9.8--Another miserable day...wishing the past was the present....can't escape these thoughts

 

[Hope:-)]

9.8--Another miserable day...wishing the past was the present....can't escape these thoughts

I'm also someone who wishes my past was the present. A lot of people on here say they were never happy but I used to be,

 

[Suicidebydeath]

9.5

 

[whitefeather]

10 . The sun is leaving us. All creatures are just " baby-suns ".

 

[Suicidebydeath]

I feel really sad nothing ever goes right.

 

[outrider567]

I'm also someone who wishes my past was the present. A lot of people on here say they were never happy but I used to be,

me too...for the longest time...but still not long enough

 

[thedaywillcome]

9 very depressed with hatered of sound(misophonia)

 

[Suicidebydeath]

11 :(
Everything just gets worse.

 

[KQuotientW]

9
I've woken up, AEST, and my dark sense of humour has come out to play. Given up on any chance of my life ever improving. Might as well laugh about it.

 

[Lullaby]

9. I just wish this was my last night and I wouldn't wake up tomorrow.

 

[ImsooDone1N]

9.0 - Feel really shitty. I also wish I don't wake up - tho I always fucking do

 

[SexyIncél]

2 to 4


I was likely set to die this previous weekend. I even started contacting friends to tell them what I loved about them

Then a couple days beforehand, a freak insane intervention occurred — suddenly solved nearly all my mental health problems. I assume this is a temporary solution, and am figuring out how to build a better grounding, before it's yanked from me again

 

[thedaywillcome]

9

 

[Wait-Bus]

I seem to be in the 4-to-5 range most days, with surges to 7-to-8 sometimes in the day.

 

[Hope:-)]

9, but I'm ok with it. Feeling pretty good. If it happens it happens. I feel like I'm coming to terms with my facial injuries too so that's good.

 

[FlyMe2TheMoon]

I feel like 10 is not high enough to describe how much I want to die. But 8-10 usually. 8 Is a good day.

 

[Timeless]

Solid 8 , weather is depressing and chronic pain and the cramps that go with it are getting worse.
I'm thinking of inducing a coma with some sufentanil to finish it to make an eternal sleep. But need to rewrite my will and say goodbye to everyone. One more vacation and probably going to do it there since it's in the middle of nowhere therefore no interactions with people who can find me and try to 'save' me..

Now drinking my feelings away.

 

[CTB Dream]

Not sure exact number it actual always 10 just some time not think because hard think maje 0

 

[GrizzlyGrapefruit]

Pretty confusing for me at the moment.

My emotional numbness is killing me. Friday night and literally have zero desire to do anything and really missing the desire to do things in general. But at the same time the numbness is also thwarting my suicidal thoughts.

So I'm at like a "logical" 7 but at an "emotional" 2.

 

[Lullaby]

Definitely at a 10 again tonight. The urges haven't let up this week.

I've been begging for a break, just something good to happen.…then I finally heard back from an employer after applying to so many places, set up a phone interview today. I had all of my potential answers and questions written out, only for them to not even call me…the only thing I was looking forward to today.

One day I'll finally learn to not get my hopes up.

 

[Ruinedbypsy]

9.5 seriously considering taking SN tonight. Only have ibuprofen, klonpin, tagamet and trazadone.

 

[lowres]

around 6-7, I'm frustrated with where I'm at in life and feel incredibly insecure and worthless right now. I've been moving forward in my life from a terrible dark point in my life and it all seems so worthless now, like it was such a waste of time because at the end of the day I still feel unfulfilled. I'm envious of my friends who are experiencing good things happening to them, I try so fucking hard but everything seems so stupid. I don't think I can ever reach a breaking point, whenever I get dark it's like there's some omnipotent hand pulling back, something whispering into my ear to scare me of death, and then all I can do is sit there and stare into nothing. it's like I'm deliberately designed to only suffer, only in marginal amounts tho it's not like my life is in shambles or anything but like enough to where everything is hopeless.

 

[GermanHanger]

8.5, getting worse every day

 

[No blackangel]

10