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collidedsigns

collidedsigns

Scholar of despair and anguish
Nov 22, 2025
44
Yep, you read that right. 41 days since my admission, I can't fucking believe it. I had another ward round today and still no discharge date. They say I need a social worker before we can consider discharge. Which has already taken this long so I can't imagine how long it's going to take. I've also been caught SH'ing on the ward and if I keep doing it I'll be strip searched whenever I come back from leave. It's hell. Especially since I still can't shift the depressive episode I've been in since October, I just want someone to put me out of my misery. It's torture waking up everyday drowning, no life jacket, no lighthouse to guide me simply constant darkness and endless choking on my own thoughts. I am an emotionless shell. Nothing can fix this. I genuinely only see death as my way out. If only he'd come visit and do the job.
 
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woofwag

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Sep 17, 2025
336
Jesus, 41 days? That is brutal, I'm so sorry. It's wild to me how that's even legal at all. The ward is basically imprisonment for people society considers "burdensome." Except you've done no crime. I hope you know it isn't your fault that you're in the ward. It isn't your fault you're struggling at all. At this point, maybe consider lying to get out of there. I can only imagine the misery you must be feeling :(
 
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collidedsigns

Scholar of despair and anguish
Nov 22, 2025
44
Jesus, 41 days? That is brutal, I'm so sorry. It's wild to me how that's even legal at all. The ward is basically imprisonment for people society considers "burdensome." Except you've done no crime. I hope you know it isn't your fault that you're in the ward. It isn't your fault you're struggling at all. At this point, maybe consider lying to get out of there. I can only imagine the misery you must be feeling :(
Thank you. I've tried lying but I've been breaking down so much recently so they have been so hyper aware of everything that's happening plus like I say they won't let me go until I have a social worker :(
 
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Sep 17, 2025
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Thank you. I've tried lying but I've been breaking down so much recently so they have been so hyper aware of everything that's happening plus like I say they won't let me go until I have a social worker :(
I really hope you can find a social worker soon. Surely in a ward they would be able to get one with some expedience (although idk your ward). I believe in you to being able to get out of this. Here's to living 41 days on the outside, whenever you're able to make that happen :)
 
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InevitableDeath

Already Dead
Jan 4, 2026
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it is a torture. That's what they do when you attempt. Just fucking torture you so you make sure next time is 100% fucking fatal . Fucking social workers are the worst pieces of shit of all. Majority are abusers dispicable cunts
 
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ManOfTheYear

Fade, fade, fade, fade. Fade into the grave.
Sep 22, 2025
45
Depending where you are at, legally they cannot keep you over 15 days. Strange for one that allows phones to be doing things you would usually find in the prison cell types. Hope u can get out soon.
 

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