I really don't know what to do anymore.. I don't think it's going to be long before I snap and take my life, my attempts are getting more frequent. I'm close to hitting the bottle again and probably start doing MDMA and other drugs so I can have a good time before I go.
This is so cruel, I fucking loved my life was a tree surgeon, felt on top of the world with my job I loved it. I was a very emotional and caring person, I loved nature and spent most of my time with my amazing freinds out in nature. I lost everything I had because of PSSD.. Girlfriend, job, house.
I now wish to spend the rest of my days in the forest out in my old village.. Its where I started my journey and its where I will end it.. Going to get High and drunk everyday atleast I'll have a bit of my emotions back.
If you guys want a chat I'm free anytime to talk I know how lonely this condition can be for us x