Preparing - I feel fucking fantastic

[LostHope556]

I'm starting to take my preparation more seriously, doing research (you can check my post history, I've shared it here for you guys).

I feel fucking GREAT! I feel FREE. No future to worry about. No problems, no unsolvable issues, no fear of growing old alone, no fear of disease or becoming disabled. No fear of money and pressure of "figuring things out" financially while also somehow attempting to be happy.

FUCK ALL OF THAT haha

I feel fucking great.

My plan is to mentally rehearse my method, and feel through the fear that comes up to "empty the fear tank" and desensitize myself to my escape plan.

Then I will practice in real life, and then, finally actually do it.

But before I do... I have like 50k of available credit to blow, so I will ABSOLUTELY do that, and stick the banks with the check. My last fuck you to this stupid shitty world and the stupid fucks in it.

Just wanted to share and celebrate with this small chosen community. Thank you all for the support thus far :)

 

[SomewhereAlongThe]

I feel the same, I've been testing my method and everything is going well with it. I feel like it's amazing, knowing you're going to die and your problems are going to vanish into thin air. Knowing you don't have to participate in this world anymore. There's no greater bliss than that tbh.

 

[bia ♡]

Yaaaay i feel uuu. Im also feeling free and fucking GREAT knowing I'll be dead soon. Enough of worrying about my weight (fuck u bulimia), the way I look and stuff like this. No more suffering over being rejected, neglected and avoided. Bye byeee to studying to get into college, and bye to all these empty and ridiculous obligations imposed by society

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you'd feel in such a way, to never suffer ever again is all I personally hope for, I wish you the best.

 

[LostHope556]

Thank you guys!

I have always wanted the pain to stop. To be at peace. I have driven myself into the ground trying to create that in my life.

Maybe the answer was right here in front of me the whole time...

I gotta say, there is a small hint of fear as I observe my feeling of hope switch from being associated with creating a business, etc to CTB

And once I start my spending spree, there's no going back. That's the off ramp, and honestly it DOES make me scared.

I'll feel through that fear and try to let it go

 

[quietwoods]

But before I do... I have like 50k of available credit to blow, so I will ABSOLUTELY do that, and stick the banks with the check. My last fuck you to this stupid shitty world and the stupid fucks in it.

I don't want to rain on your parade, but always plan for failure. You never know what is going to happen. Even the most prepared and driven people have failed their attempt, often through no fault of their own. Having a massive debt might not be super fun on top of dealing with the after effects of a failed attempt, and may force you down a path of a much less pleasant way to CTB.

 

[Alreadylate]

I could die in Switzerland 5 times with that money...

 

[LostHope556]

I could die in Switzerland 5 times with that money...

Can you just got to Switzerland and get euthanized like that as a foreigner? Don't you need a lethal condition first?