Poll: Would you want your enemies/bullies to know that you have committed suicide?

[noname223]

I think about my enemies. My former therapist and the people I ghosted in my self-help group who tried to bully me. And all the bullies from my time in school.

Honestly, I don't want them to know it. I think it would feel like a victory for them. Maybe it would be one second guilt (for some of them), some schadenfreude and a big chunk indifference. My opinion on this question differs though depending on my mood.

I start to become scared of people. These people really wanted to harm me. In general I often think I want to be forgotten. And my whole existence should be eradicated. But this won't happen. I just read a text that postulates with digital legacies many people will live forever. If I was acutally dead though I think I won't have to care about my digital legacy.

 

[TheTwelthRootOfTwo]

I wouldn't give a flying rats petunia who knew I killed myself; I won't be here to know about it.

 

[Zvetok26]

I don't care anymore. I am just tired

 

[noname223]

I don't care anymore. I am just tired

I added this option.

 

[existentiallinguine]

Sometimes I do, sometimes I don't. Some days I'm feeling like a martyr and I nobody had met me in the first place, that i want to go out kind. Sometimes, I hope the guy who SA'd me opens the news or hears about my college memorial, that he pukes and cries, sometimes i hope my abusive family realizes they could have done anything to stop it as a kid and are upset. But overall that's a fantasy and I have no idea what the reaction will be either way.

 

[Zvetok26]

Thank you :) I've already "no", though

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm not sure I care much. I doubt they are capable of feeling guilt or remorse. It maybe matters more to me that friends who knew me during that period will know that the inevitable eventually happened. I get some satisfaction out of them secretly blaming my bully because initially- they did set me on this path.