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If a shotgun magically appeared in front of you, would you shoot yourself instantly?

  • Certain

    Votes: 37 18.7%
  • Likely

    Votes: 60 30.3%
  • Unsure

    Votes: 37 18.7%
  • Unlikely

    Votes: 43 21.7%
  • Definitely Not

    Votes: 21 10.6%

  • Total voters
    198
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moshimoshi

Apr 6, 2024
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Dark Moon

Dark Moon

Elementalist
Sep 21, 2022
805
I voted likely, I would want to get rid of my savings first and then I can pull the trigger.
 
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Malaria

Malaria

If I can't be my own, I'd feel better dead
Feb 24, 2024
1,084
On a scale of 1-10 on my suicidality right now, I would rank myself a 9, so I voted "likely"
 
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etherealspring

etherealspring

can someone just kill me already
Mar 27, 2024
281
as of now, im too much of a coward to even decide on a plan, despite how much i desperately want to die. but if a quick, easy method to ctb was right in front of me, i can say with absolute certainty id just do it straight away.
 
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sserafim

sserafim

they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
9,012
Depends on whether I would succeed or fail. If I knew for sure that I was going to succeed, then yes
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,387
I have no experience in handling firearms so I'm sure I would screw it up somehow like maybe the recoil causes my hand to change its aim last minute and shoot a non fatal area that leaves me as a vegetable so I think it's unlikely I'd go for it.

Unless I'm desperate enough though.
 
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jujujr

jujujr

Member
Oct 29, 2023
49
ez 200 pumping myself fr fr
 
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blueming

blueming

if we can stand outside the borders of time
Sep 21, 2018
258
I want to die in an environment where I feel relaxed and secure, so I probably wouldn't be able to do it where I am now.
 
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LunarLight

LunarLight

i'm a loser, a failure
Apr 3, 2024
1,363
I have no experience in handling firearms so I'm sure I would screw it up somehow like maybe the recoil causes my hand to change its aim last minute and shoot a non fatal area that leaves me as a vegetable so I think it's unlikely I'd go for it.

Unless I'm desperate enough though.
If you put the gun in your mouth and aim for the brainstem, with proper ammunition, you shouldn't screw up lol, even with no experience in handling firearms whatsoever.

As for the main question, I voted unsure because for the moment, I'm torn between trying rTMS/ECT and committing suicide as soon as I receive my SN. I would like to try everything I can and use CTBing as a last resort solution to my pain. Because all in all, I wanna live. Just not like this.
But there are many uncertainties. Will I be accepted in a clinic which offers rTMS/ECT? When? It's pretty urgent. And I need a paper from my GP as I don't wanna see yet another psychiatrist who's gonna deny me access to rTMS/ECT and try the same shitty ISRS/antipsychotics/mood stabilizers which DON'T WORK ON ME. IT'S BEEN SEVEN YEARS, DUDE, GET OVER IT. But my GP doesn't have any appointments available for the moment, she's quite overbooked. Will I make it through if the appointment is in July? I need a solution right now, the pain is unbearable.
So yeah, I'm unsure I would make it. But as the days go by, I'll definitely lean more and more towards likely/certain.
 
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billie

billie

take me back to the night we met
Mar 31, 2024
623
I can't imagine shooting myself with a gun
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
2,294
Not with a shotty!
 
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willitpass

willitpass

Don’t try to offer me help, I’ve tried everything
Mar 10, 2020
3,219
I don't have a good knowledge base about gun suicide. I've never touched a gun in my life, so I don't know the first thing about how to use one. Contrary to popular belief not all Americans have or even approve of guns. But I would keep it and spend time doing research. I would learn to shoot it. Then when the time was right, yes I would use it.
 
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divinemistress36

divinemistress36

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,722
If you put the gun in your mouth and aim for the brainstem, with proper ammunition, you shouldn't screw up lol, even with no experience in handling firearms whatsoever.

As for the main question, I voted unsure because for the moment, I'm torn between trying rTMS/ECT and committing suicide as soon as I receive my SN. I would like to try everything I can and use CTBing as a last resort solution to my pain. Because all in all, I wanna live. Just not like this.
But there are many uncertainties. Will I be accepted in a clinic which offers rTMS/ECT? When? It's pretty urgent. And I need a paper from my GP as I don't wanna see yet another psychiatrist who's gonna deny me access to rTMS/ECT and try the same shitty ISRS/antipsychotics/mood stabilizers which DON'T WORK ON ME. IT'S BEEN SEVEN YEARS, DUDE, GET OVER IT. But my GP doesn't have any appointments available for the moment, she's quite overbooked. Will I make it through if the appointment is in July? I need a solution right now, the pain is unbearable.
So yeah, I'm unsure I would make it. But as the days go by, I'll definitely lean more and more towards likely/certain.
I'm at almost 7 years of severe suicidal idealation too
I'm American and have never Shot a gun in my life and to scared of ending up as that 1-5 percent that end up a vegetable from it. I had a stroke in my medulla so I think I'd be to scared to shoot myself there
 
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Guy Smiley

Guy Smiley

Just another lost soul
Jan 4, 2024
456
Probably not, I'm not American so I wasn't born with a gun in my hand and taught to love, stroke🫳 , honour and obey it 😅

What were you taught to love, stroke, honor and obey?
 
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Lynx.

Lynx.

Member
Sep 28, 2022
80
Based on my current level of suicidal ideation, if the death is guaranteed and instant, I'd do it, almost certainly.

Survival instinct might push me back, but the first thought that would pass through my head would be to blow my brains with it, surely.
 
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Ash’Girl

Ash’Girl

Girl, Interrupted
Apr 29, 2022
386
I'm actually terrified of guns, I don't know why, I've never held one, they're not commonplace in the U.K. I would absolutely fuck up shooting my self, if I managed to combat SI enough to pull the trigger.

We had an incident years back where there was a terrorist attack on an airport. All airports went into high alert and there were a bunch of armed guards posted patrolling each airport (police here don't even generally carry guns, I think they actually got people from the armed forces). I was picking up a friend from the airport and ended up having a massive panic attack just at the sight of all these armed staff 😑

Made little sense but yeah, I think I have gunphobia (Google tells me it's called hoplophobia).
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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returntothevoid

Member
Jul 20, 2023
98
I'd use it for sure, but not right away. I'd have to do some preparations first. (Write a note, go somewhere where family won't find my body, get my things in order, eat my last meal, etc.)
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,387
If you put the gun in your mouth and aim for the brainstem, with proper ammunition, you shouldn't screw up lol, even with no experience in handling firearms whatsoever.
I'm sure I'd still find a way. I'm great at screwing up mechanically simple tasks since I have horrible luck and my dexterity is rather poor. 😅
 
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fiora

fiora

back from recovery
Apr 3, 2024
68
the only thing stopping me is si
 
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lament.

lament.

the Immortal
Jun 28, 2023
190
Would depend where I am, if I was outside somewhere secluded yeah probably but I wouldn't want to make a mess everywhere if at home lol.
 
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Ociv

Ociv

Don't fear what's in your head
Mar 29, 2024
86
Id love to, but I have unfinished business.
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
8,995
Probably not, certainly not instantly, as I'm not quite ready to go. Additionally, it's not my method. I have a shotgun, and if it came down to it, possibly because I was unable to utilize another method, and I needed to take myself out quickly for whatever reason, I believe I would do it then. But, as a first choice, no, even if utilizing a shotgun (firearm) is the most reliable method to CTB, which it is.
 
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ringo99

ringo99

Arcanist
Apr 18, 2023
490
I'd prefer a .45 or 9mm pistol. The chances of a shotgun slipping in the process and blowing off something I never intended to scares the hell out of me
 
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Amnesiac_88

Amnesiac_88

I'm not living, I'm just killing time.
Mar 14, 2024
26
Not instantly cause i don't want to leave a mess in my room, so i'd probably have to find another place to shoot myself
 
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4am

4am

there’s nothing for you (it/its)
Dec 14, 2023
3,330
i'd have to google how to use a shotgun first
 
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Sageiois

Sageiois

Member
Apr 6, 2024
66
I currently have the shotgun just waitin for tomorrow
 
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Lost Magic

Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
3,205
before I had my peaceful method, I would have said most likely. I have had many fantasies about blowing my brains out, however.
 
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AstroV

AstroV

Member
Nov 3, 2021
75
After backing out of my attempt with a handgun, I've realized that going through with it isn't so easy. I think you have to be in the right mind state.
After backing out of my attempt with a handgun, I've realized that going through with it isn't so easy. I think you have to be in the right mind state.
 
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