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Dark Moon
Elementalist
- Sep 21, 2022
- 805
I voted likely, I would want to get rid of my savings first and then I can pull the trigger.
Malaria
If I can't be my own, I'd feel better dead
- Feb 24, 2024
- 1,084
On a scale of 1-10 on my suicidality right now, I would rank myself a 9, so I voted "likely"
etherealspring
can someone just kill me already
- Mar 27, 2024
- 281
as of now, im too much of a coward to even decide on a plan, despite how much i desperately want to die. but if a quick, easy method to ctb was right in front of me, i can say with absolute certainty id just do it straight away.
sserafim
they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
- Sep 13, 2023
- 9,012
Depends on whether I would succeed or fail. If I knew for sure that I was going to succeed, then yes
Dr Iron Arc
Into the Unknown
- Feb 10, 2020
- 21,387
I have no experience in handling firearms so I'm sure I would screw it up somehow like maybe the recoil causes my hand to change its aim last minute and shoot a non fatal area that leaves me as a vegetable so I think it's unlikely I'd go for it.
Unless I'm desperate enough though.
Unless I'm desperate enough though.
jujujr
Member
- Oct 29, 2023
- 49
blueming
if we can stand outside the borders of time
- Sep 21, 2018
- 258
I want to die in an environment where I feel relaxed and secure, so I probably wouldn't be able to do it where I am now.
LunarLight
i'm a loser, a failure
- Apr 3, 2024
- 1,363
If you put the gun in your mouth and aim for the brainstem, with proper ammunition, you shouldn't screw up lol, even with no experience in handling firearms whatsoever.
As for the main question, I voted unsure because for the moment, I'm torn between trying rTMS/ECT and committing suicide as soon as I receive my SN. I would like to try everything I can and use CTBing as a last resort solution to my pain. Because all in all, I wanna live. Just not like this.
But there are many uncertainties. Will I be accepted in a clinic which offers rTMS/ECT? When? It's pretty urgent. And I need a paper from my GP as I don't wanna see yet another psychiatrist who's gonna deny me access to rTMS/ECT and try the same shitty ISRS/antipsychotics/mood stabilizers which DON'T WORK ON ME. IT'S BEEN SEVEN YEARS, DUDE, GET OVER IT. But my GP doesn't have any appointments available for the moment, she's quite overbooked. Will I make it through if the appointment is in July? I need a solution right now, the pain is unbearable.
So yeah, I'm unsure I would make it. But as the days go by, I'll definitely lean more and more towards likely/certain.
billie
take me back to the night we met
- Mar 31, 2024
- 623
willitpass
Don’t try to offer me help, I’ve tried everything
- Mar 10, 2020
- 3,219
I don't have a good knowledge base about gun suicide. I've never touched a gun in my life, so I don't know the first thing about how to use one. Contrary to popular belief not all Americans have or even approve of guns. But I would keep it and spend time doing research. I would learn to shoot it. Then when the time was right, yes I would use it.
divinemistress36
Angelic
- Jan 1, 2024
- 4,722
I'm at almost 7 years of severe suicidal idealation too
I'm American and have never Shot a gun in my life and to scared of ending up as that 1-5 percent that end up a vegetable from it. I had a stroke in my medulla so I think I'd be to scared to shoot myself there
Guy Smiley
Just another lost soul
- Jan 4, 2024
- 456
Probably not, I'm not American so I wasn't born with a gun in my hand and taught to love, stroke, honour and obey it
What were you taught to love, stroke, honor and obey?
Lynx.
Member
- Sep 28, 2022
- 80
Based on my current level of suicidal ideation, if the death is guaranteed and instant, I'd do it, almost certainly.
Survival instinct might push me back, but the first thought that would pass through my head would be to blow my brains with it, surely.
Survival instinct might push me back, but the first thought that would pass through my head would be to blow my brains with it, surely.
Ash’Girl
Girl, Interrupted
- Apr 29, 2022
- 386
I'm actually terrified of guns, I don't know why, I've never held one, they're not commonplace in the U.K. I would absolutely fuck up shooting my self, if I managed to combat SI enough to pull the trigger.
We had an incident years back where there was a terrorist attack on an airport. All airports went into high alert and there were a bunch of armed guards posted patrolling each airport (police here don't even generally carry guns, I think they actually got people from the armed forces). I was picking up a friend from the airport and ended up having a massive panic attack just at the sight of all these armed staff
Made little sense but yeah, I think I have gunphobia (Google tells me it's called hoplophobia).
We had an incident years back where there was a terrorist attack on an airport. All airports went into high alert and there were a bunch of armed guards posted patrolling each airport (police here don't even generally carry guns, I think they actually got people from the armed forces). I was picking up a friend from the airport and ended up having a massive panic attack just at the sight of all these armed staff
Made little sense but yeah, I think I have gunphobia (Google tells me it's called hoplophobia).
Too risky. Awkward to aim, especially with my short arms. I'd rather have a 357 with a hollowpoint.
I'd use it for sure, but not right away. I'd have to do some preparations first. (Write a note, go somewhere where family won't find my body, get my things in order, eat my last meal, etc.)
Dr Iron Arc
Into the Unknown
- Feb 10, 2020
- 21,387
I'm sure I'd still find a way. I'm great at screwing up mechanically simple tasks since I have horrible luck and my dexterity is rather poor.
fiora
back from recovery
- Apr 3, 2024
- 68
the only thing stopping me is si
lament.
the Immortal
- Jun 28, 2023
- 190
Would depend where I am, if I was outside somewhere secluded yeah probably but I wouldn't want to make a mess everywhere if at home lol.
Ociv
Don't fear what's in your head
- Mar 29, 2024
- 86
locked*n*loaded
Archangel
- Apr 15, 2022
- 8,995
Probably not, certainly not instantly, as I'm not quite ready to go. Additionally, it's not my method. I have a shotgun, and if it came down to it, possibly because I was unable to utilize another method, and I needed to take myself out quickly for whatever reason, I believe I would do it then. But, as a first choice, no, even if utilizing a shotgun (firearm) is the most reliable method to CTB, which it is.
ringo99
Arcanist
- Apr 18, 2023
- 490
I'd prefer a .45 or 9mm pistol. The chances of a shotgun slipping in the process and blowing off something I never intended to scares the hell out of me
Amnesiac_88
I'm not living, I'm just killing time.
- Mar 14, 2024
- 26
Not instantly cause i don't want to leave a mess in my room, so i'd probably have to find another place to shoot myself
4am
there’s nothing for you (it/its)
- Dec 14, 2023
- 3,330
Sageiois
Member
- Apr 6, 2024
- 66
Lost Magic
Illuminated
- May 5, 2020
- 3,205
before I had my peaceful method, I would have said most likely. I have had many fantasies about blowing my brains out, however.
AstroV
Member
- Nov 3, 2021
- 75
After backing out of my attempt with a handgun, I've realized that going through with it isn't so easy. I think you have to be in the right mind state.
After backing out of my attempt with a handgun, I've realized that going through with it isn't so easy. I think you have to be in the right mind state.
After backing out of my attempt with a handgun, I've realized that going through with it isn't so easy. I think you have to be in the right mind state.
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