Discussion [Poll] Are you receiving therapy/ professional MH care?

[DarkJason]

I don't even bother seeking help anymore. It feels like no amount of therapy or meds in the world can fix my life at this point.

 

[snow_in_summer]

I guess my problem is it feels hard enough just to function for my job and take care of myself so I don't have the energy or time. Then the whole anxiety of even if i do im just gonna have to hold stuff back

 

[eccedentesiast]

I've been under mh services for the best part of a decade now and, numerous times, have had short courses of therapy which have provided slight relief in the moment, although this has never been sustained post-treatment. I've now been accepted onto a longer term MBT (mentalisation-based therapy) course for my BPD, which I've heard has been really helpful for other people, so I am hopeful but this is a last resort for me. I do not wish to spend the rest of my life in and out of treatment, taking medication several times per day, and if I'm no better after completing this therapy then I believe I was not meant to be.

 

[sbem]

i wouldnt mind getting help but at some pointi would have to tell my family that i have some problems and since my sister is getting help even if it's not that serious it has taken a huge toll on my
parents and so combining everything together makes me think it's not worth it and still at some point i don't mind staying like this i wouldn't like going to therapy and getting told something i don't want to hear so it's better like this i think

 

[savv]

I've been getting therapy since March. I feel guilty outright telling them that this hasn't been working, and that I'm certain I'll end up croaking anyways through no fault of their own. I ended up having to fake a narrative of me getting better during our sessions, and that's made me feel guilt about that too. Medication just flat out isn't an option because of the cost.

 

[Seneca65AD]

1st time poster - but probably one of the eldest on here (60 ish). Tried meds and therapy periodically since the mid '80's. Therapy did not work other than providing another future date to look towards and "hope". Meds just keep me from acting impulsively but I still have the planning stage as a fall back if my life or career suffer a set-back. 4 previous "serious" attempts over the decades - first time was June, 1986. 2 hospitalizations. Each time an unexpected event interrupted a succesful completion. Even to the point that I left my phone on to listen to an appropriate playlist and the authorities tracked my phone after my accountant called (he has never called me on my private line ever). I have no recollection of 4 days so this is was relayed to me by the psychiatrist and my now ex-partner. I feel like I'm getting closer to the end and it is more difficult to force myself to go through the motions of living. I do not feel there is any realistic chance of beating this "black dog" as per Churchill.

 

[Dark Moon]

I was given a high dosage of anti depressant sertraline after my last suicide attempt, other than that nothing else.

 

[Nrocoop]

I'm doing both meds and therapy. Have done so on and off for 26 years. Bipolar, plus chronic illness in old age and low income, sees me returning to SS recently.

 

[Pickle&Pumpkin]

Both. I've been through a whole list of meds, but now that I think my diagnosis finally lines up, the medications usually help. I also switched therapists recently to someone who challenges me instead of just listening.

 

[wheelsonthebus]

Both. I've been through a whole list of meds, but now that I think my diagnosis finally lines up, the medications usually help. I also switched therapists recently to someone who challenges me instead of just listening.

Damn. Mine only challenged me but never listened. Hope you find a good balance!

 

[BeyondSurvival]

Even though I respect getting professional help, what I need is people who listen to me because they love me, not because they make money from it.

 

[yzzzy]

Nothing. Once I was able to recover by myself (in 2023 when I tried to ctb multiple times). Can't afford treatment here. No one in my family or anyone understands me . Most therapists in my country are so called religious people and I don't believe in them. It costs money to get good therapy. I have zero. This time I'm not sure about my life. No one cares about me. No therapy can fix the amount of trauma and problems I'm going through. i don't need typical everything will be fine or meditate to reduce stress type therapy.

 

[GhostPiano]

On both. It actually has helped me a lot. But only because I finally found a good therapist that actually listens and understands. Meds are kinda meh. The ones I'm on are better than nothing but definitely haven't found ones that makes me feel normal lol. Just (kind of) functional.

 

[leftoverss1ep06]

Just started a new therapist and a new medication. It did help previously, until it didn't (side effects got too intrusive for the meds and we kinda reached the max we could do with my old therapist to the point where the conversations started to get redundant and we were always talking about the same tools. Now i'm at a new spacialized clinic and i got a diagnosis, so we'll see how it goes. However, it's been pretty hard starting both new things at the same time, esp cause i have the habit of getting really mad at myself for trying to be better in the early days.

 

[Leonard_Bangley39]

part of me hopes that someone near me finds out and has me institutionalized so i can at least just sit in a psych ward or something without having to worry about things like finding a job or a place to stay.

 

[kajal]

not yet

 

[v0idion]

technically i got into therapy for chronic nightmares,but apparently they switched it up to social anxiety? and she was talking about some stuff like depression and medication but i guess ill see how that goes on the next appointment...

 

[ZornTheDreaded]

Gotta love when the therapist knows this isn't working at all, but hey they'll still take my money

 

[Sakaki Lalonde]

Omg everybody told me to start therapy so i did and its so fucking useless lmao

 

[newslaves916]

Nah cuz it's a trap

 

[callousedhope]

Yes! I've tried lots of therapy and still have a therapist that I can't see again until January bc of insurance stuff lol but it's funny how it always comes back down 2 square 1. I usually tell ppl to try therapy, it has been beneficial in some ways :)

 

[nopat]

Actually I was going to therapy, until my mom suddenly stopped taking me, she never really valued mental health lmao, its not like I was opening up alot too. I dont seek for help but i I wouldn't say no if I was lightly forced.

I used to go for 3 years, then I paused ( my mom not caring for mental health and making me see a speech therapist instead) for a year then resumed for another year.
3 months have passed since my last session, im not asking to go there again because I purposely dont wanna be better.

I've been fantasizing about death for 5 years, talking this to a random payed dumbass will only get me put on useless meds or a hospital that wont change anything, well whatever i hope i die.

 

[sakakap]

Gotta love when the therapist knows this isn't working at all, but hey they'll still take my money

been there done that lmao

 

[like_a_bird]

So much therapy, so much medication. Both have made me much more suicidal. Especially the therapy.

 

[kunikuzushi]

I think therapy can easily make things worse depending on the therapist. But I go to individual therapy and two group therapies a week. I'm not looking to be "cured", as I know I will ctb soon/eventually. But I use it as a support for this unbearable life.

 

[Flololo]

I had a therapist for a few months before covid started.
He was amazing! He was a great listener, he knew exactly when to interject, and respond like a friendly human. He was helpful in the sense that I finally had someone to talk to, and who responded back in a way that made me feel happy. That man had loads of empathy and it showed.
I moved to the UK a few years ago, and have not been able to make friends locally, so I really needed someone like that.
He also gave me a few tools to deal with anxiety, which I still use.

I have been struggling so much these past few years, with deep deep sadness, and difficulty dealing with society in general, completely crumbling in the face of expectations and obligations. I have finally been able to see a psychiatrist through the NHS after a 6 year wait, to have an ADHD and autism evaluation.

That psychiatric consultation was awful! the doctor had lost my diagnostic test, he had not even read it. I had done a lot of introspection and taken notes based on the questions on that test.
Instead, he insisted to have a casual conversation where he asked me very open ended questions. I really struggled to remember on the fly what could be relevant for adhd/autism. He interjected in the weirdest places. He kept insisting that "that's nice, kids these days don't have nice experiences like that" (ok, I saw ponies when I was 3 years old, that doesn't mean I am now cured, what the hell?!) He also was annoyed whenever I asked him to explain better what he was asking. He refused to expand on anything, he kept telling me to just answer his questions. He was robotic and as neutral as possible, right there in the uncanny valley of human behaviour. I saw no empathy in him, nothing seemed geniuine besides his irritation.

I ended up just giving him a bland overview of my entire life, with very few relevant point for sure.
He then told me I had ADHD and autism traits, but we all do, and that it doesn't mean I have ADHD or autism. He prescribed an SSRI. I have yet to have my follow up consultation scheduled, so I have no help until they remember I exist.
I did have a couple of good days since I started medication little more than a month ago, but I mostly have mediocre days, or awful ones when I really have to fight the urge to end it all from the moment I wake up until I go to sleep.

I think I had too much faith in the help that was coming. The hope that help was coming was what kept me going for 6 years since I had asked for that referral.

 

[MAKE_IT_STOP!]

I've done therapy, medication, even medications meant to treat "treatment resistant depression". Nothing has worked. Additionally, I have too much trauma dealing with mental health professionals who will call the cops on me if I'm honest about how I'm feeling. What a fantastic system where seeking help in the most honest form leads to getting arrested and shoved in a blinding white brick room with a yoga mat on a piece of concrete that acts as a bed.

 

[Chemi]

Been through years of therapy, had a bit over 2 years total of inpatient & day clinic psychiatry, had rehab for drugs, been to AA and NA, been to support groups. It did help me a little, but the core problems never went away, no matter what fancy therapy types I tried. Saw most people get better with professional help, saw others pass away. Child psychiatry was the wildest thing, having school classes in the morning and therapy in the afternoon. Also, shocker, kids are still dicks that bully, even in psychiatry.

The system can help most people. Sadly, it never helped me enough.

 

[WhatCouldHaveBeen32]

Spoiler

Now? Nah, I've had it before, tried many meds, did therapy, was inpatient for a while but honestly I never saw the point, I voluntarily committed myself, but I got no help, nothing that I expected, they were so robotic in the way they talked to me. I think there is truly no help in this world, we're all just monkeys that are better off not knowing things and those that have genetic predispositions to depression, schizophrenia, ADHD, autism, bipolar, BPD, NPD, etc. or those who are born in the wrong body...well I think those people are just unfortunate statistics in a species with over 8 billion of us.

It's tragic to say but we are just animals, human centrism and whataboutisms about how great we are, how everything will turn out okay, nah, life is a shit no matter what condiments you put on it, it will taste like a sweet and salty turd at best. Music, vibe, prayers, friends, family, partners, believing in yourself, this won't get you anywhere, this won't make you able to beat death when you couldn't have, this won't be able to make you save others that you otherwise couldn't have. It will change nothing, just because you can conceptualize something, doesn't mean it will turn out to be reality. I dream everynight of a world where children are not being trafficked, raped, murdered, of women not having the same faith, of men not having the same faith, of wars stopping, of animals living and people stopping factory farming. None of this will do shit, even going out and doing it yourself, what can a single person save? sure we are let's say 10 million, how can 10 million erase billions's actions and the actions of selfish beings at that?

This life is a curse, and being born with an ounce or empathy or having circumstances where you develop empathy, is an even bigger curse. I can't wait for the day I die. I don't care that life has no inherent meaning, if it doesn't why didn't we stop procreating? same people that say this then choose to have a child. Should I suddenly stop caring because life has no inherent meaning? should I suddenly just be happy go lucky that life has no meaning, yeah life has no meaning go make your own isn't the win the wanna be philosophers think it is, but no, I should respect them because they are also humans, bleah, fuck off, they don't respect anything, their respect exists only to serve themselves, somehow I was the only one who understood respect and love the fictional way, where it's ACTUALLY respect and love, not the real fucking way, where it's, insert coins or get the right dialogue options and you can get shit from people, such respect and love.

The same people that spout this nonsense go out and eat animals that had no fucking say in this world, born to get fucking insta killed and farmed on repeat like in a fucking video game. Such disgusting hypocrites, "life has no meaning so make your own" just typing it again, it's so fucking obvious they only say it BECAUSE YOU ARE ALSO HUMAN, they have something they want to get from you, I kinda said this already but whatever, obviously they have never said sorry for stepping on a leaf or for accidentally ripping of a branch, obviously they have never attributed human like features to pigeons or animals, they don't respect them, an animal crosses their path, they will just go through the animal, displace it, they're the boss aren't they, the big apex predator, imagine, imagine being PROUD of having the title predator and flaunting it around.

What disgusting creatures, curse this fucking world, curse this universe, curse all of it. Yeah, good luck for meds and therapy, I think they'd do a great job in my case, they'd really help me "cope" with the situation, yeah, me a human that is on the same levels as others, it's so funny no? the only one who sees the irony? I HAVE TO "COPE" with the decisions of OTHERS but they don't have to COPE with my decisions??? and you see it in fiction, that fucking dexter serial, I watched an episode but there is a youtube short where people say he is preventing 1000 of people from dying but what if he kills an innocent man? it's better to leave it to the law, AH okay so when you are viewing it objectively from your couch, you can deduce that 1 innocent person = 1000 people being killed because people are equal to eachother and numbers don't affect that. Okay. then why do I have to cope with the decisions of others but they don't have to cope with mine? where is it? where is the explanation? oh you suddenly get empathy when watching movies and tv shows, the most fantasized thing in the world, empathy and love and equality and justice because it doesn't exist in real life, that's why it's fantasied about in fiction. I spit on this life, no therapy or doctor or medication can help me.

 

[Tautochrome]

Tried therapy - no effect except for growing annoyance. Changing your mindset and making small steps simply doesn't work when you're fundamentally incompatible with this life. If my therapist knew the extent of my problem, I'd be sent to a psych ward. And meds, I'm still on meds. They're not doing anything.